This morning I was hit with a wave of emotions. Y’all, I’m telling you, I really don’t know what is happening to me lately! After listening to Pastor Sarah Jakes Roberts message, “Glory Triggers,” for the second time (was distracted when it first aired), it dawned on me that I had not worked through some of my triggers. It wasn’t until this morning that I realized I have been running from them, not dealing with them.
It’s like I can see every trigger that has made me run. Those triggers that made me feel vulnerable. Even those things that should have made me feel like I was on top of the world actually made me feel like I was unworthy. I have a lot to unpack and work through. The crazy thing is, I thought I had worked through everything and was on the other side. But all I was doing was avoiding them.
Yeah… It’s time for me to stop running and stand still long enough to acknowledge these feelings so I can work through them. I now realize it’s the only way I’ll be able to successfully move forward.
I say this so often that it may appear to be a cliche; but y’all, I love the way God loves me. One day I will have to write a book about God’s greatness in my life. The way events occur in my life is quite interesting and seemingly implausible; but as they say, I have receipts.
I have thousands of journal entries – 30 plus years of entries – that document God’s goodness, grace, mercy and unconditional love in my life. Y’all, no matter how many times I have – been disobedient, done things on my own, self-sabotaged opportunities, and doubted His words – He has always picked me up, brushed me off, dried my tears, made me smile and gave me another chance to do and be better.
Yes, one day I will write a book… or several.
Y’all, I have discovered it’s not the big, glorious things that make life so interesting. It’s the small things leading to the big ones that are so remarkable and rewarding!
I pray you have a beautiful week. Be mindful of the small blessings that come your way. I believe they are God’s way of expressing His love for us, which is so often overlooked.
Be Blessed
Shaun
Yesterday I received a last minute invite to a rodeo. Friday night’s meltdown became Saturday’s smile. This is only one example of how God expresses His love for me.♥️
It’s Friday night and I have absolutely nothing to do. Went scrolling down the rabbit hole (that darn social media) and now I really wish that I wouldn’t have. Too much of nothing, lies and hypocrisy on these platforms. I’m about ready to throw all of it away. I wonder, and I’m so serious right now, I wonder if I can actually throw it all away. Like disconnect and never look back. Am I disciplined enough to do it? Am I disciplined enough to start over?
Today I am sharing two Facebook memories. Both were written the same day but shared at different times. When I talk about my 40’s being crazy, this is one of the examples.
On February 28, 2019, I was preparing to go to the movies to see Tyler Perry’s A Madea Family Funeral. The actual premiere was on March 1, 2019, but I always like to go see his movies the day before. You know, so I can feel like I get to see it before everyone else. Crazy, right?! Laughing
Anyhoo… Here’s what happened the night I was supposed to go see the movie, written the next day.
MY HOUSE FLOODED!!
Facebook Memory No. 1: March 1, 2019
Sitting here thinking. Y’all, God really does have a sense of humor. Just thinking how I was in the bathroom getting ready. Thinking about how I was going to be laughing. Then God said, “Oh, you wanna laugh. I’ll make you laugh!” And He did just that!! He said, “You ain’t gon’ be laughing at nobody else. I got you!” I love my life and I love my God. That’s how we interact.
Facebook Memory No. 2: March 1, 2019
Last night threw me for a loop! Everything happened so fast. It’s one of those situations where you really don’t have time to think about how to react, you just go with the flow. The guy who came to help clean up the water kept saying I was taking it well. I told him that being emotional wasn’t going to help the situation. It wasn’t going to change anything. I laughed. Thanked God it happened before I left for the movies.
Now that had me disappointed. I was so ready to laugh. Can’t y’all tell I love to laugh. I was laughing when I saw the water rushing in. Hmm… I’m beginning to think that’s how I’ve learned to cope with craziness. A few years ago I probably would’ve freaked out. Thank you, Lord, for calming my spirit, for bringing me peace. Y’all, things happen. Life happens.
Over the years I’ve learned we really do have a choice over the way we react to situations. I’m not saying that I never become emotional because I would be lying. Believe me, I know how to throw FABULOUS pity parties. However, most of the time I try to put a positive spin on things that happen, especially those beyond my control. I know God is the only one in true control and He has a reason for allowing things to happen. We may not understand why, but He does, and we have to trust Him. Okay. That’s all. Thanks for listening. Enjoy your weekend! I love, y’all!💕
I handled that event pretty well. I believe God and all of His angels were surrounding me at that moment because of the way things just fell into place. And y’all, I LAUGHED!!
Guess what?! I’m about to laugh again. Gonna watch A Madea Family Funeral today to commemorate that moment.
Y’all have a blessed day. By the way – Happy March! Wishing you a month of peace, love, happiness and blessings.♥️
Shaun
Got to see the movie the day it actually premiered and it was just as funny as I imagined it would be.
Decided not to title this “Random Ramblings,” but I’m rambling. Hehehe
I was just thinking about the saying, “Hurt people, hurt people.”
I have heard this for ages and have never quite understood why people believe this is a justifiable excuse for hurtful behavior. Especially when people intentionally hurt people. I can see if they’re not aware of their behavior, but when they are, something is pretty evil about it.
Or… and this is even crazier, people who intentionally hurt people to prove a point. There has to be something deeply wrong with them.
It’s my prayer that hurt people heal from their pain. They should never hurt other people because they know what it feels like to be hurt.
Like I said, I’m just thinking… and rambling.
Looking back over my adulthood, I have been hurt many times. I’m talking about hurt so badly that my physical heart was in pain. I have been hurt so badly that I haven’t wanted to get out of bed. And during all that pain, I have never wished harm on anyone nor intentionally mistreated anyone, not even the person who hurt me.
Hurting and mistreating people is a choice. With this said, someone who believes they are intentionally being hurt because they have been hurt before is completely different. That’s an internal issue that requires self reflection and often professional help. I’m referring to the ones people say are hurting others because they’ve been hurt before.
Okay… that’s all. Not even sure what triggered this thought. Could’ve been something I saw on my timeline, or a random video, or a random thought.
Y’all have a great rest of the night and please be kind.♥️
Everyone has to start somewhere. Please do not let the fear of imperfection stop you from beginning. Also, no further experience needed. Start with what you have and God will provide the rest.♥️ ~ Shaun
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