Over the years, I have danced around writing about my desire to find love again. I’ve spoken about my divorce and sometimes hinted that I wanted to remarry, but I have never said anything directly.
Well, today I am. As I was looking for something to share for Self-Love Saturday, I found this entry in my journal written on March 28, 2019. Usually, I’m hesitant to share something so personal, but this time I’m not. No anxiety. No fear. No still small voice telling me not to. Only feelings of being free to be me.
This entry really made me smile because I wrote it to my future self.☺️
Shaun’s Journal Entry, March 28, 2019
I have to be somewhere at 10:00, but before I leave, I’m dedicating this to you.
Note to future LaShaundrea:
I love you. You will find love AND love will find you. No more one sided relationships. Who God has destined as your partner, king, lover, best friend, provider, the one that is going to love you like God loves you, will come. Everything takes time (God’s preparing him, too). Enjoy where you are. I know you don’t feel loved right now. I know you’re sad. Not depressed, but sad (there’s a difference). God is working as we speak. Everything will be okay. People will never understand your excitement, but he will and he’ll embrace it. He will love you like God loves you. You will not want for anything. Don’t worry, he won’t take God’s place. He can’t. Your gratitude will always be given to God. Amen
I love you, Shaun. 🤗🥰
I love that I thought about my future self.🥰
Today, I’m just here.
Not looking.
Just being me.
Don’t get me wrong, I still want to love and be loved, and I want to get married again. Even though I didn’t marry the right man the first time, and we had our issues, I still loved being married.
Anyhoo…
Have a wonderful weekend! Remember to do something just for YOU. You deserve it!♥️
Love you,
Shaun
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