Over the past few years I have done a lot of soul searching. Been trying to figure out who I am. Trying to find my true self. It has definitely been a journey. Have I accomplished my goal? Um… NO! However, what I have discovered is helping me become the best version of myself.
Recently I started reading old journal entries from the 90’s. I can’t believe there were so many things I had forgotten about– past relationships, accomplishments, heartaches, and dreams. It’s been like reading someone else’s story. My life has been full of experiences– good and bad, juicy and dry… basically a mess. Lol. But they were my experiences and I thank God for all of them. They’ve shaped who I am.
This year I asked God for clarity. It’s amazing how one little request has revealed so much. The Bible says, “Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find. . .” (Matthew 7:7). Well, I’ve found out a lot about myself. Some things I’m not too thrilled about, but I needed to discover them to help me become a better person. There are patterns that I have repeated over the past 20-30 years that have to stop. Then, there are others that I need to strengthen.
Honestly, I needed the revelations. I needed clarity. I’m not too thrilled about letting some things go, but I know that I have to. They’re really holding me back. I guess you can say, I have always used them as crutches for not moving on, for not growing, for saving myself from hurts and disappointments. Yeah… it’s time to let go and move forward. Here’s the first…
Farewell, Blue Eyes (SWR)😥
Letting go and moving forward.