What keeps you motivated? After all the hype dies down. After the Amen corner becomes quiet. What keeps you motivated?

For a few years now, I have fed off of others’ energy. Seeing them excited, made me excited. Seeing them prosper, made me want to prosper. However, when your source of energy is no longer present, where do you draw your energy? Asking for a friend. Lol

Music used to get me pumped. I love music. I’ve tried it lately, but it’s not the same. Perhaps I’m listening to the wrong music.

According to Cheryl Wood, everyone needs an energy source. And she’s absolutely right. The energy that person pours into you, you tend to pour into others. Lately, I’ve poured and poured until I’ve become empty. My source is gone. Maybe I need a conference to attend. Conferences always seem to work. I need to be around energy and positive vibes.

“Surround yourself with people who are where you want to be and doing the things you want to do.”- LJBrad (yep- me!)

Short story– I took a break from social media because the atmosphere wasn’t right. I no longer felt myself growing. I had plateaued. I was giving out my last bit of energy and receiving nothing in return. After about a week or so, I decided to get back on Twitter, but only under TheResearchDiva account. I felt good because I was surrounded by things I cared about– health equity, human rights, eradicating poverty, etc. I was in the global realm. I felt like I belonged.

So, for a week or so, I only operated there. My mind was there. My heart was there. Then, I slipped back to my personal Twitter account and started checking my Facebook page. Things that used to excite me, did, but not like before. Things had changed…I have changed. It’s crazy because one part of me feels like I’ve lost friends; however, the other part feels like I’ve gained the world. How do I balance the two?

I guess I’ve found my answer. It’s not the answer I wanted to hear. I have to let a few things go. Letting go doesn’t mean I don’t care. It just means that I can’t grow where I am. TheResearchDiva is where I need to be right now in order to stay focused on this degree and my purpose. I need to immerse myself in global health. I know that if I make the sacrifices now, I will be in better position to serve others. I cannot serve anyone on empty.

I just needed to write- to get my thoughts out. Thanks for reading. I’m not going anywhere. I just need to reorganize how I handle things.😘


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