Lately I’ve been writing and not sharing my blogs on social media. Either people are going to read them or not. Honestly, I’m not sure if I really want anyone to read them. I just need to write.
Last night was the FIRST time I’ve ever brought in the new year, solo. My daughter was doing her own thing. My son is with his father. I usually go to the Delta and spend it with my father and bonus mom, but not this year. I had too many things to reflect on. I needed the time alone. I just pray this doesn’t become routine every New Year’s Eve.
I didn’t even bring in the new year watching The Potters House. I fell asleep around 8:00 p.m. and some notification woke me up around 10:30 p.m. Today, Bishop T.D. Jakes posted, “The sign of maturity is balance.” Balance. It’s what I need. It’s what I was doing when I made my schedules and stuck with them. Now I’m all over the place.
It’s really time for a change. What comes, comes. And what goes, goes. I have to stay focused on my purpose. I cannot repeat the same mistakes as I did in 2018. I can’t. This year I’m asking God for clarity. Please God, show me where I’m going wrong and help me correct it. Clarity and Balance.
Happy New Year