The countdown for the last seven days has officially begun! As I wrote this morning, I feel so blessed and loved. It’s such an indescribable, yet fascinating feeling. Almost euphoric. Even with my mom passing and life still lifing, I can feel what’s happening around me, but then again, I can’t. It’s like that saying–“Ships don’t sink because of the water that’s around them; ships sink because of the water that gets in them.” Yes, that pretty much sums it all up. All kinds of craziness is still happening around me, but none of it is touching me. Y’all, that’s God!
On another note, a couple of days ago, I watched Gabrielle Union-Wade’s documentary, “My Journey to 50.” So much of her experience during the last few days of her 40s resonated with what I am currently experiencing. Y’all, it had me all in my feelings. Although her journey took place in Africa, the spiritual part is what I mostly identified with. Just as I have been writing about these past few weeks–that extra baggage–she spoke about leaving past traumas on this side of 50. She refused to take them into the next half of her life. Again, same with me. I refuse to take any of the traumas, triggers, hurts, heartaches, disappointments, insecurities and self-sabotaging ways into the next half of my life. I absolutely refuse to!
Y’all, life is just so interesting. Never knew 50 would get here so quickly. I keep asking myself where did the time go. Instead of feeling resentful or like a failure for not achieving my goals (because I spent a lot of my 30s and 40s doing just that), I feel like I have been given another opportunity to do anything I want, a reset with no limits!
Anyhoo… I’m going to end here. I know this was pretty random. I decided to write all of this this evening since tomorrow’s Father’s Day. Didn’t want to add all of this to my Father’s Day post. Lol
God is good.♥️
Good Night
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