My Purse Note

Good Morning! I hope you rested well last night. I surely did.😊

So, as you can see I’m still talking about my “purse note,” which I retired yesterday. Yay!! Yes, I retired it. It had been ten years and needed to be released along with everything else I released on the other side of 50. As I said, there wasn’t anything juicy or story worthy in it, just something between me and God. Basically, it was about my state of being and mindset at the time (2014).

At the time I was on the brink of a divorce and I thought my world was falling apart because things weren’t going as smoothly as I had hoped. For those who don’t know, I initiated the divorce (full story can be found elsewhere). I knew before I said “I do” that I shouldn’t have. Besides that still small voice screaming in my head “Don’t do it!”, there were many other signs. Side note: When I tell this story I have always referenced “When I said ‘I do’.” Well, it just dawned on me that we never said any vows. We got married at the courthouse and one of the options was for the vows to be said to us and we just say “I do.” And that’s what happened. Wow!

Anyhoo… let me not get sidetracked. As I have written before, I had to make things right. He had no idea I wasn’t in my right frame of mind when I got married, but God knew. For years I lived in guilt and I kept hearing my life wouldn’t get any better if I didn’t make things right, which was letting him go. And boy when I did it wasn’t pretty. Becoming emotional all over again. Y’all, I had no clue I would lose everything. Everything! My house. My car. Family. Looking back, had I known, I’m not sure if I would have done it. I would have needed to. I had lost myself. I was depressed. I wasn’t mentally present for my kids. I had lost so much hope. It was just a bad situation that I needed to get out of, and I did.

Now, here I am 10 years later full of gratitude! I made it!!! Yessss!!! Here I am 10 years later and God has restored everything I lost including dreams I had given up on long before I got married. Y’all, obedience pays off. Listen, right those wrongs in your life and watch God work. At first, the enemy will make you feel like you’ve made the biggest mistake in your life. However, the biggest mistake is living a lie, and not living to fully fulfill your purpose, dreams, and goals. Y’all, there’s so much more for me to do and see! I can’t wait to see what God has planned for the next 10 years!

The message: Be obedient…the first time.♥️

Love you,

Shaun