Life

Too Excited to Sleep

I really should be asleep. Like really! Too much on my mind. Like, why did I forget to buy pearls for today’s inauguration? Been meaning to do it forever but didn’t want to go to the store. Ugh…COVID-19!! I know I had a set of pearls but I can’t remember where I put them. I do have a pearl bracelet, so that’ll have to do. See, I have unnecessary things on my mind.

Oh.. and the book anthology, Finally Free, will be released tomorrow. I want to go ahead and schedule the promo now, but I have no clue of what I want to say. Y’all, I have absolutely no clue of how to promote myself or this book. On the other hand, I do know how to be consistent. For the past week, I have been promoting the book daily from all of my social media platforms. It’s something I haven’t been comfortable with doing, but I’ve been doing it. Listen, the captions look a mess, but I get them out there. Lol! On a serious note, yesterday I posted that this book experience has been about so much more than becoming an author, it’s been about me embracing my purpose and taking the necessary steps towards moving forward. I can’t stop this time, or slow down. My purpose is too great and my time is now- not ten years from now, but NOW! I also received an email from my advisor saying that it’s time for me to decide if I’m going to continue with the doctoral program. Next semester begins March 1. As I said in the beginning, I have a lot on my mind.

Guess I could have made this a journal entry but I felt like sharing. Plus I needed to publish my mid-week blog so this works. Lol. Well y’all, I’m finally sleepy so I’m going to hit publish and go back to sleep. Today’s going to be a good day, and tomorrow is going to be even better. Speaking it!

Talk about “Speaking it!”– a friend gifted me this mug a few days ago. When I thanked her, I thanked her for speaking favor over my life. God is good!

Thanks for reading my ramblings. Enjoy your day!

Shaun

Life

Hello Sunday

I Won’t Complain by Reverend Paul Jones; Lyrics by genius.com

I’ve had some good days
I’ve had some hills to climb
I’ve had some weary days
And some sleepless nights
But when I look around
And I think things over
All of my good days
Outweigh my bad days
I won’t complain

Sometimes the clouds are low
I can hardly see the road
I ask a question, Lord
Lord, why so much pain?
But He knows what’s best for me
Although my weary eyes
They can’t see
So I’ll just say thank You, Lord
I won’t complain

The Lord as been so good to me He’s been good to me
More than this whole world or you could ever be
He’s been so good to me
He dried all of my tears away
Turned my midnights into day
So I’ll just say thank you, Lord

I’ve been lied on
But thank You, Lord
I’ve been talked about
But thank You, Lord
I’ve been misunderstood
But thank You Lord
You might be sick
Body reeking with pain
But thank You, Lord
The bills are due
Don’t know where the money coming from
But thank You, Lord
Thank You, Lord
Thank You, Lord

God has been so good to me
He’s been good to me
More than this whole world or you could ever be
He’s been so good
He’s been so good
He’s been so good
So good
So good
So good
So good
To me

He dried all of my tears away
Turned my midnight into day
So I’ll say thank you Lord
I won’t complain

Have a blessed week!

Shaun

Life

Lesson Learned

Quote by Tony Gaskins, 2019

Found this quote in today’s Facebook memories from 2019. In the memory, I had written a long caption about how I had been reading journal entries from the 90s and discovered I hadn’t changed much. I noted that I had grown spiritually and professionally, and was also making better decisions. However, my personality, heart, and spirit hadn’t really changed. I questioned why I had not grown stronger in those areas, meaning, why hadn’t I changed? You see, those were the areas that made me feel inadequate around others. That made me feel vulnerable in certain situations. That made me love harder than I should have. You would think 30 years would’ve made a difference, but it hadn’t.

That was two years ago. Here I am today, same personality, heart, and spirit. At first I asked myself why these characteristics hadn’t changed. You see, over the years I have tried to change them. Tried not to be so sentimental or emotional. Tried not to wear my heart on my sleeve. Tried to fit in by being less silly and more poised. Yeah.. I tried to be everything I wasn’t, everything I’m not. Then it hit me, those aren’t weaknesses. Those are my strengths. They don’t need to be changed. They need to be embraced. The only reason I continue to feel vulnerable while embracing them is because I’m trying to get others to embrace them as well. I guess you can say I’m having an “AHA” moment. Maybe that’s the lesson Tony Gaskins was referring to. I will never be able to move to the next level as long as continue to remain in the presence of those who do not fully accept Shaun. Umm… I believe it’s time to re-evaluate my circle. What’s that old saying– “If it don’t fit, don’t force it.” I will no longer try to force myself to fit where I’m not embraced. Period!

Thanks for reading!

Shaun

Life

Hello Sunday

Today’s one of those days that I just don’t feel like writing. Honestly, I’m tired. I’m emotionally and mentally drained. The events that took place on January 6 at the U.S. Capitol did a number on me. I anticipated a few fights, maybe some vandalism of local businesses, but I was not prepared for the rest. What happened hurt my heart and soul. It wasn’t only the insurrection that took place, but the brutal reality that racial inequality still plagues our nation and people still seem oblivious to it. How can they still not notice? It was on display for the whole world to see. Never would a peaceful protest by Black people (yeah- I’m ONLY focusing on Black people) been met with such niceties and respect. From here on, I have nothing for those who choose to ignore the racial inequalities and inequities in our country. Nothing! I will no longer waste my time and energy trying to get people (Whites and Blacks– because there are a few) to understand the injustices Black people face on a daily basis. I’m done!

As you can see, I’m pretty emotional and hurt right now, so I’m going to end this. Yeah, today isn’t a good day for writing. Today I plan to disengage from social media and surround myself with positive vibes and love on my kids. I’m remaining hopeful that most people want change.

Next Sunday will be better. Please enjoy your day!

Shaun