I have been going through my videos on TikTok and saving what I can. I had no idea I made so many videos. In my mind, I had only made about 10 over the past few years (I hate being on camera) when in reality, I’ve actually made close to 50. Who knew?!😁 I am glad I had TikTok to document things I didn’t feel comfortable with sharing on Instagram or Facebook—too many familiar and judgmental faces on those platforms.
I documented my time with my mom at the hospital. I also documented moments before she had the seizure that sent her to the ICU for the final time. In the video, I was all chipper talking about my upcoming 50th birthday. I had no idea that an hour or so later, I would never speak to her again. Another was a video I had decided not to share because I hated how I looked. I had left it in Drafts and ended up sharing it a few days after my mom passed. I was so worried about the way I looked, not knowing my momma would die so soon. I knew she was dying, but I just knew she had at least a couple of more weeks to live. The video I made was about God instructing me to stop focusing on everything I needed to do at home and to focus on being there with her. Well, I never shared that video until after she was gone. The way I looked no longer mattered at that moment. My momma was gone. Life…
Well, I said all of that to say, I made a lot of meaningful videos. So many documented memories I can’t afford to lose. I’m so grateful I am able to save what I can.
Since it’s Self-Love Saturday, I have decided to share two videos I made. The first one aligns with today’s theme of dreaming big (March 2023), and the other is one I made after the election (November 2024).
I have more Self-Love Saturday videos I might share over time. I still can’t believe I had so many. They were rarely planned. Anyhoo… Be sure to love on yourself and do something extra special today. You deserve the extra attention.♥️
Love you,
Shaun
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