Life

Willing to Eat Alone

As soon as I got to my dad’s and hugged everyone, my sister waited until we were alone to ask if I had found a “boo” yet. Laughing as I think about it because that’s like the first thing everyone asks me. I’m so happy my dad has finally stopped asking. His thought now is that I’m too mean. Now, why would he think that? Laughing. I just don’t have time for nonsense.

With all that being said, I know I have written about being ready to love again, and at times I feel it more than others. However, I am actually good with where I am. No longer in a hurry, especially since it didn’t happen before 50. Yeah… 50 was my deadline for finding love. Now I’m like it happens when it happens.

Back to my conversation with my sister. So she tells me that my ex is in a relationship (she saw it on Facebook). Even though I don’t follow him on Facebook, I know he’s been in a relationship for a few years now. Didn’t think it was worth discussing. That’s his business. Anyhoo, she goes on to say that I can’t let him outdo me. That I need to find me a boo too. Hilarious! Baby, this is not a competition. Shaking my head laughing.

Just saw this quote a few minutes ago. Basically, it sums up how I feel about being in a relationship.

More than willing to eat alone until then.

Listen, I don’t have to settle for any old table just to keep up with someone else, nor do I have to rush a thing. Just because I am ready to love again doesn’t mean I am desperate. I’m kind of glad God didn’t do things on my timetable because I probably would have settled. He really does know what’s best.

Grateful♥️

Life

Hello Sunday

Hello! Here’s a Facebook memory from last year. I should have added, wherever your heart is, your mind and soul follows. Where is your heart?

Here’s an additional caption. I added this when I reshared it to another account.

Moment of Transparency:

There was a time when I allowed thoughts of imperfection to control me. Not saying those thoughts don’t still pop up, because they do, but they no longer control me. Yeah.. caused so much anxiety.

I keep telling y’all when I say God is sooo good, THIS is what I’m talking about. #ForeverGrateful

Y’all, God is absolutely wonderful. I just love watching Him work in my life. Used to spend most of my time watching Him work in the lives of others, now I am watching Him do the same for me. Of course it is not always pleasant to watch. Believe me, sometimes the tests and trials make me want to throw in the towel and just be; however, God won’t let me. He pushes me through. Then, I look up a year(s) later and I am so much stronger than I was before. This past week I attended a conference with women I used to feel intimidated to be in the room with. My imposter syndrome used to be on an all time high. However, this time, I knew… not only felt… but knew I belonged there. Again, God is absolutely wonderful!

That’s all I have for you today. About to get on the road. Please keep my family in your prayers. My bonus mom is really sick. We are not sure what’s wrong. She’s been sick for a while but is just now admitting it. At first I felt like this was deja vu because it is August again, but I am not claiming it. I know God is a healer. Amen

Y’all have a wonderful day. Love you!♥️

Shaun

Life

It’s Okay to Cry

Needed this Facebook memory. Last night, I was thinking about my mom and kept saying to myself, “Don’t cry.” I didn’t want to cry. I hate crying about negative things. Now, happy tears, I will cry happy tears all day. However, whenever the tears want to come when I am sad, hurt, heartbroken, frustrated or mad, I try to hold them in. I try to convince myself that I am strong enough to take blows without producing tears. Those tears make me feel weak and vulnerable so I try to hold them in. So, this particular memory I needed to see. I have a lot of built up tears on the inside that I need to release.

Facebook Memory: August 11, 2023

Heartbroken? Disappointed? Feeling BLAH? OR Just need to cry? Listen, do it because life is hard and your tears will NEVER be wasted. They will either water something new, revive something you believed was dying, or cleanse your soul (gem from my 8th grade Spanish teacher☺️). So cry! Believe me, you’ll feel sooo much better afterwards.♥️

I know I’m not the only one who needs a little soul cleansing. So cry. Get it out! Those tears will never be wasted.♥️

Praying you have an absolutely amazing weekend. Love you!♥️

Shaun