Life

Hello Sunday

Hey Y’all! This is like day 30 something that I’ve been blogging from this oh so comfy hospital futon. Gotta love it!

I keep telling myself I’m built for this. That God will never put more on me than I can bear. Sometimes I believe it, then other times I’m not so sure.

I always say I love watching God work – referring to the great things that I see Him doing in other’s lives. However, with that said, I also know that they’re human and can’t possibly be exempt from difficult times. I refuse to believe that they’re that special because I KNOW God loves me! Therefore, I’m considering this one of those difficult moments that I have endure before I get to greatness. Yes.. greatness! My God doesn’t play small. He always plays BIG. Smiling

Side note: When I speak about greatness, I’m not referring to notoriety, but my own personal feeling of achievement. Right now, it seems like I have eons to go. However, I must remember that God’s blessings will always make up for whatever time I feel I have lost.

Okay y’all, I’m going back to sleep. It’s early. I’m only awake because my mom keeps calling me to change the channel and asking when are they bringing breakfast. Y’all, she doesn’t want my peanut butter crackers. Said that’s for healthy folks. And she can’t see or hear the tv to know what’s on, but I keep turning it anyway. Funny and fun times from this hospital room. Can’t help but laugh. This too will pass.

Praying you have a lovely Sunday!

Shaun

Life

Hello Sunday

This morning I finally logged back onto one of my personal Instagram accounts. Didn’t know that I had been logged off for six weeks. I definitely needed that break.

Also, a few days ago, I logged back onto my Nutrition with LaShaundreaB accounts.

Since my mom’s been in the hospital (and she still is), I have been feeling kind of lost with no true sense of direction. It’s like my life has been placed on an indefinite hold. I’m not sad about it, nor disappointed, just a bit uncertain about my next moves. You know, I had logged off social media to focus on launching this project and BAM! the unexpected happened. I guess this is what makes life interesting, right?

This morning, I’m writing while still sleepy so I’m not going to make this very long. Here’s what I’ve recently realized (the reasons I decided to log back onto social media):

1) Life is going to continue to happen whether I’m plugged in or not. Yep… it’s still moving right along.

2) I am in control of the affect distractions have on my focus, emotions and feelings. It’s all on me.

3) The only sure, unwavering thing is God’s love, mercy, grace and peace. Yeah… it’s all inclusive. He is my refuge and a place I can always find rest.

Y’all, it’s so wonderful knowing that God never changes based on our moods, emotions, feelings, doubts, egos, etc. He always remains the same. I’m so grateful and blessed that I can always find peace and comfort in Him. He’s just so wonderful!

As I said, I’m back on social media; however, this time my focus is different. Allowing God to lead.

I pray that everything is well in your life. As always, thanks for reading. I truly appreciate y’all.♥️

Shaun

Life

Hello Sunday

It’s almost 4:00 AM and my mom is finally aware of the date and time (still kind of off about the time of day even though it’s dark outside). She knows that certain bills have to be paid by a certain date. I told her we would worry about those things on Monday. That I would handle it all.

Yeah.. it’s almost 4:00 AM and now I’m trying not to worry about everything I have to do on Monday, or tomorrow. Shoot.. I barely remembered to pay my own bills that weren’t automatically drafted. Life. Gotta love it.

Right now, she’s falling back to sleep. I believe I’ll do the same. Tomorrow, I’ll handle whatever needs to be done then. However, today.. right now.. I’m going to stay present, get some sleep and deal with whatever Sunday brings.

Staying present.

One task and day at a time.

Going back to sleep.

Y’all have a blessed day.

Shaun

Life

Hello Sunday

Today’s a brand new day. So grateful for life. So blessed that Momma is still with us. Although the progression process has been very slow, she’s still progressing. Taking things one day at a time. Prayers for continued peace, patience and guidance. Amen

Shaun

Life

Hello Sunday

Asking for prayers.

This morning, I can say that I’m feeling much better physically than I was yesterday. However, mentally and emotionally, I’m about the same. So, here’s some of what’s going on.

Early yesterday morning, my mom was taken to the ER for being unresponsive. My brother, who lives with her, couldn’t wake her up or feel a pulse. Long story short- She’s now in ICU.

She’s still with us but remains unresponsive. She’s also on a ventilator and sedated. Everyone on her medical team keeps stressing that she’s, “very, very sick.” “Your mother is very, very sick.” Of course they told us what was wrong; however, it’s the way they’re all stressing the severity of what’s happening is what has made this ER visit and ICU stay different from the others.

For those who don’t know, my mom has paraplegia. She hasn’t been able to feel anything from her waist down since 1998. Well, over the years, she’s developed many more complications, and these last four years (2018 – now) have been the worse. She has had so many ER visits and hospital stays since then. Fortunately, things calmed down a bit during the height of the COVID pandemic. She did become very ill a few times but the doctors treated her at home.

Now, here we are. Unlike times before when I only contacted immediate family, or a few of her siblings, this time I have contacted her friends and extended family. As I said before, this time feels different.

My prayers have been whatever’s in God’s will, let it be; and let us, her children, be prepared to handle whatever comes – good or bad. Even though my mom is paralyzed, she’s always been independent and strong willed. So some of the decisions we may have to make are going to be very difficult.

At this moment I’m just praying she’s at peace and not in any pain. One of her biggest fears is being in a predicament like this and not being able to tell anyone she’s in pain or uncomfortable. So I’m praying that she’s completely comfortable. Also, praying that we get to see her smile and hear her laugh again, soon.

We love you, Momma.🙏🏽♥️

Please keep our mom and family in your thoughts and prayers. Thank you.

Shaun

Life

Hello Sunday

All Smiles

It’s 3:00 AM and I haven’t been to sleep yet. Ugh!! One day I’ll follow my sleep schedule.

Anyway.. I just read my journal entry from this date a year ago, August 21, 2021. I’m smiling because my life actually follows a certain pattern. Y’all, I never realized this until a few days ago after reading several entries from the same date but different years. When I say I’m amazed! And quite amused too. Laughing. Y’all, my life is so interesting. It’s definitely Oscar worthy. My daughter says it’s my Cancer energy. That my life and behaviors are true to my sign. Whatever

Honestly, I believe it’s God’s way of keeping me entertained and grounded while helping me become the woman I’m meant to be. It’s taken years, but I can finally see and feel God working. And it’s such a wonderful feeling.

Okay.. I need to go to sleep. Have to be up in a few hours to attend a conference. Yesterday’s sessions were pretty good! So good that I created a YouTube channel. More info to come!

Well, good night/morning. Wishing you an awesome day.

Shaun