God’s love will not let you fail. You WILL succeed.♥️ ~Shaun
God’s Love
Category: Life
Trusting God 2
This morning I woke up with Donnie McClurkin’s song “I’ll Trust You, Lord,” playing over and over in my head. Here’s the intro of the song:
What if you call Me and don’t feel Me near you will you still trust Me?
What if I tell you to let go of everything that you think you have to hold, will you trust Me?
Yes, I’ll trust You Lord
What if it costs my life, yes I’ll trust You Lord
What if I lose the very thing I love so dear, yes I’ll trust You Lord
Today, I am trusting God to see me through this. I believe my brother’s death hurt differently because it was so unexpected. This one is different. Every time she was admitted to the hospital, my heart prepared for the worse, but she always managed to pull through. I knew this time was different. I felt it. Thought I was prepared…
P.S. Sorry I am writing about the same thing. This is my way of coping. I just need to write. I have to. I want to be strong and pretend life is the same, but it isn’t and I am sad. If you’re tired of hearing about my mom’s death, please feel free not to read any of my blogs for a while because honestly, I am not sure when I will stop writing about it. It might be today or a year from now. This is my world… my life… my reality. I’m okay, just need to write. Thanks for understanding… or not.
Shaun
Trusting God
I feel lost. I understand what needs to be done, personally and professionally; however, I am not sure of what move to make next. Where do I go from here?
From September of 1998 up until Momma’s death, every decision I made was somewhat centered around her. She was always calculated into my every move. Where I lived. The trips I took. Her care. Her needs. All of it. Now, her life and journey is no more. It is finished. Complete. Now what?
This morning my phone vibrated and my first thought was something had happened to Momma. Then I remembered she’s no longer here. I didn’t cry. Didn’t really know what to do. As I mentioned, I just feel lost. Hopefully by this afternoon I will have a plan for the rest of the week. I do not like being in this head space. I have so much to do personally and professionally. I have obligations to meet and all I want to do right now is be.
Life…
Trusting God to guide me through this process because I need him right now. I know I say this all of the time, but my kids are the best. They are my rocks. Grateful and blessed.♥️♥️
Hello Sunday
Happy Mother’s Day to all of our mothers and mother figures. Know that you are loved and very much appreciated. Praying you enjoy your day!🌸 ~ Shaun
The Encourager
I have never really written much about my mom outside of her birthday or Mother’s Day (which I’ll share even more tomorrow). Well, my mother, Dorothy Ree Bradford, was also a writer. She was an author and a poet. A few years ago, I tried to encourage her to start blogging but it wasn’t her thing.
During the early 2000s, she published a monthly newsletter called The Encourager. The Encourager was a one pager that included words of encouragement with relevant scriptures as references. Every month she would print out her newsletter and mail it to her friends. I believe she did this for about two years. To this day, her friends still mention her newsletters.
When I began blogging, I never associated what she did with what I had aimed to do– inspire and encourage others. Honestly, I am not really sure why I chose to use the word “Inspiration” in my title, Shaun’s Daily Inspiration, instead of “Encouragement.” I believe I liked the way Inspiration flowed. I will have to look back and see what I was thinking when I created it.
Anyhoo… I am slowly discovering just how much we were alike. Sadly, I never really felt like we were ever on the same page. While packing up her house, I found so many journals. Had no idea she was constantly writing. None of my other siblings keep journals. Only me. Now, I do remember her having diaries when I was a little girl. I am pretty sure that is what inspired me to start writing. I had to stop keeping a diary because she kept reading them. Yeah… I was forever getting in trouble for what I had written.
The excerpt below is from my journal entry written on September 18, 2020 (significant date–will provide more details tomorrow):
“More and more I feel like I’m destined to be an encourager, even though my life isn’t the best. Guess I get that from Momma.”
It’s all beginning to make sense. I am truly her legacy.♥️
See Yourself There
Shared the following a year ago–
Can you see it?
Can you feel it?
Are you already living it even though you’re nowhere near it?
You can believe until you’re blue in the face. If you can’t see it, you’ll never have it. Just sharing God’s message to me. Thought you could use it too.
Day 2… Part 2
Listen, when I tell you God just won’t let me stay down. Not even for a few minutes! As soon as I posted my last blog, He started working. I have to testify in real time because He works in REAL TIME! Y’all, He’s just that good!!
As I have mentioned before, God always sends exactly what I need when I need it. Here’s one example. It’s a YouTube message by Dharius Daniels, I Think I’m About to Break. Didn’t want to listen to it. Wanted to wallow in my feelings for a minute, but God wouldn’t allow it! I am so thankful I was obedient. This was exactly what I needed. WHEW!!
When I tell you God absolutely loves me… BELIEVE IT!!!
Blessed.♥️
Day 2…
Not even sure what to write. Not even sure if I want to write or draw anymore or pursue any of the things I thought were so important. Today, I feel lost and confused. I say it all the time, there is just something about death that makes me rethink my life and dreams. At the moment, none of my dreams or goals matter. As my sister said, we wanted so much for Momma. Although each one of us imagined a different life for her, she said that she had accomplished everything she set out to and was at peace. But we all know that wasn’t entirely true. She shared her dreams with us and so many did not happen.
So, today, I sit here wondering if all of my efforts are a waste of time. Should I just be? Are my dreams and aspirations unrealistic? Today, all optimism is gone. I have none. Whatever God decides for my life, I will not question. I respect Him too much to question what He has planned. I am simply going to go with the flow. I am so tired of putting in the work and being nudged to work harder and harder. For what? Yeah… I’m tired. It’s funny how as much as I want to hide and not do anything, I keep doing things. Like me writing this blog because I don’t want to mess up my blogging streak. Shaking my head.
Life is so complex.
Momma
Momma–
I cannot begin to describe what I am feeling. I have cried. Smiled. Laughed. And cried some more.
I am truly going to miss you.
Thank you for loving me!
Stay True
Stay true to your authentic self. Either they will love and accept you as you are, or not. If not, move on.♥️ ~ Shaun
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