Singing– “When I think of the goodness of Jesus and all He’s done for me, my very soul cries out ‘Hallelujah!’ I thank God for saving me.”
I have so much to be thankful for. The fact that I am still alive, sane and living is worth a lifetime of praises. Amen
I am also thankful for the gift of motherhood. Many of you already know how much I love my two. They are my hearts and smiles. To love them and be loved by them is one of the greatest feelings in the world. It absolutely blows my mind that God chose me, Shaun, to be their mother. I am truly blessed.
“Do not make a permanent decision based on temporary circumstances.” –Bishop T. D. Jakes
My head wants to sever ties but my spirit and heart will not let me. I know there is a purpose behind the pain and madness. Just wish I knew what that purpose was.
Maybe there is some kind of lesson I am meant to learn from this. Or, some kind of super power I am supposed to gain from being so strong. Will I receive some kind of award or prize for my perseverance? If so, I would love to receive it while I am still living. I would love to experience heaven on earth and while I am young enough to enjoy it.
Honestly, though, I must be failing the assignment because I keep going through the same thing. Like, different year, same stuff. It is as if this cycle is stuck on repeat. What am I missing? What step am I overlooking or avoiding? When I tell you I feel like I am in one of those escape rooms and just when I think I am finally about to escape, I enter another hallway with more rooms that lead to nowhere. Is there even a way out?
Can I scream, now????
Yes, knowing the purpose of it all would definitely help… or would it?
Only God knows. I guess my job is to keep going, to keep playing.Eventually, I will win! Right?
No matter what, I have to keep going. But this game of life is no joke! I’m tired.
It’s Shaun’s World 
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