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Life

Are You Living?

Shaun Bradford
Please, LIVE!!

Question of the day–

“Are you living or just existing?”

This quote comes from one of my favorite Tyler Perry movies, “The Family That Preys.” It is a question I tend to ask myself after someone close to me passes.

Last week, I found out one of my cousins was in the hospital, slowly passing away. I had no idea she was sick. Turns out the cancer she thought she beat 12 years ago had returned some time last year. She passed away the day before yesterday. Honestly, I’m numb. I’m speechless. I’m sad. I’m hurt. I feel lost. There’s just so much I am feeling right now. I have been trying to hold back the tears but I’m not doing a good job at it.

My cousin’s name was Adrea. She was my stepdad’s oldest niece. We were both turning 50 this year. Her and my sister right under me shared the same birthdate. And I shared the same birthdate as her dad. We met when we were about five and spent our childhood summers together. Sadly, we only saw each other a few times as adults. The last time we saw each other was about 10 years ago. I just knew we would see one another again at one of our random family reunions.

Yes, today I’m sad. I woke up asking myself if I am living or just existing. It makes me second guess the way I am living. Am I wasting time on certain things when I need to be pursuing other things? I wonder if things are moving a little too slowly. I want so badly to help God along but I am also trying to allow Him to work in His time. Y’all, I really want to scream. I don’t want to die before I experience everything I can possibly imagine. And I want to make it happen now but I don’t want to overstep God’s authority. UGH!!!!!!

Yes… today is a lot!!

Anyhoo… I know I will feel differently later. Just had to get that out. Y’all have a blessed day.♥️

Shaun

Life

Happy Birthday Mr. Sutton!

Shaun Bradford

Today is my daddy’s birthday!

Yes, I’m a daddy’s girl!

Although I cannot be with him today, I can’t wait to call him. Y’all, I love my daddy!

Several blogs ago, I touched on relationships between Black fathers in their children’s lives. In that specific blog I was referring to an episode of Tyler Perry’s House of Payne. The characters, Miranda and Calvin, were discussing Calvin’s relationship with their son Christian. Miranda had found a job opportunity about 800 miles away. Calvin did not want her to take it because he wouldn’t get to see Christian as often. Well, I didn’t see a problem with it because for most of my childhood I lived over 800 miles away from my dad.

With that said, there were times I wondered what it would feel like to live with him. Well, I kinda got my wish when I stayed with my great great grandmother during my 4th and 5th grade years of school. I finally got to see him almost daily. Sadly, whenever I did stay at his house, I barely spent time with him and neither did my siblings who actually lived with him. Y’all, my dad is a workaholic! To this day, he still works seven days a week. He wakes up and goes to bed thinking about work. Several years ago, he suffered two strokes which slowed him down, but he never stopped working. Honestly, I believe working keeps him alive.

I really do wish I could spend time with him today. Might drop in on him this weekend. Over the years I have learned to cherish the few hours I have with him at home or go to work with him. I think I might just go to work with him since he is the one being celebrated. Y’all should see his smiles whenever I decide to hang out with him at work. He just be cheesing. Yeah… I think that’s what I’ll do.

Hope y’all have a wonderful Wednesday!

Be Blessed♥️

Shaun