Hey Y’all! I have finally made it to the last day of my 40s!! When I tell you this past decade has been the MOST EVENTFUL decade of my life. Listen, I could produce three or four movies from this decade alone.
Here’s what I have learned–ALWAYS TRUST GOD. That’s it! Trust God! Trust Him and allow Him to lead. When He says, “Let go,” let go! Release it. When He says, “Be still!” You need to be still. Sit down somewhere. When He says, “I got you!” You best believe He’s got you!! Baby, He will move mountains for you!!! Y’all, I could not have made it without Him. Not at all.
I’m not sure where this next decade or 50+ years will take me. Only God knows. I will say I am more prepared and better equipped to face whatever comes next–good or bad–because God has the reins. I will continue to allow Him to lead, and do whatever He asks of me. Other than that, I am looking forward to more experiences that make me smile and feel all loved. Yeah… that’s one of the benefits of allowing Him to lead.
Y’all, God is soooo good. I am definitely blessed. So long 40s!
Everything that has happened throughout your lifetime–the good and bad, the wins and losses–has prepared you for this specific time and space. Do not second guess your worthiness. You were chosen for this.♥️
Handpicked by God to fulfill His purpose, a purpose that only YOU can fulfill.
I shared this last year and it is just as relevant today.
“Focus on what’s ahead, not what was left behind. Believe me, God has so much more planned for your future. Trust Him.” – Moi, June 20, 2022
Do not look back. God has something greater planned.
Not sure why, but I woke up feeling somewhat anxious and in a panic. I cannot remember if I had a bad dream or what. Maybe it had something to do with me falling asleep with a lot on my mind… other people’s problems, to be exact. Thankfully, the feeling is passing.
Lately, I have come across so many people in pain, mentally and emotionally. The weirdest part is the people who are hurting and finally being very transparent about their pain–or forced to be transparent because all of their dirty laundry is on public display–are the so called rich or wealthy. It is so heartbreaking. Money can buy experiences and lots of things, but it cannot buy the things people truly need most–unconditional love and peace. No amount of signed NDAs or gag orders will ever give them the peace they seek.
Sadly, many of these people have built entire personas to mask their real lives. They look fabulous and perform well; however, they are absolutely a mess underneath. With time, that mask eventually falls revealing everything they tried to hide.
Y’all, people are really hurting. And I am not only talking about celebrities. I’m talking about entrepreneurs, influencers and self-made millionaires. They appear to have it all because they are finally able to do all of the things they dreamed, yet they are still mentally and emotionally unwell. My heart truly weeps for them. My question is, where is their support system? Have they been pushed away? Have they been replaced with an online audience or followers?
Okay… I’m done. Maybe this is another layer of baggage that I need to shed, internalizing others’ problems. Their problems are not mine to solve or deal with. Going forward I must remind myself that I cannot save or heal the world, that is God’s job. My job is to show love and kindness, and keep them in my prayers.
Now that I have released their problems, let me go back to sleep. I pray you have a blessed day.
Choose kindness, even when handling yourself. Always, always, always be kind.♥️ ~Shaun
You deserve kindness too.
So let’s talk about yesterday. Yesterday I found myself dealing with an issue I thought I had mastered– loving and accepting ALL of me.
Yesterday, I allow someone’s words, spoken with good intentions, make me feel like the weird little girl who always spoke before she thought. Yes, that was me. Whatever I thought came out, and always at the oddest moments, especially when I was excited.
Well, it still happens today. My siblings and kids are always reminding me that I sometimes say weird or unfiltered things. The crazy thing is I have absolutely no idea when I’ve said something wrong or weird until it’s pointed out. So now, I always try to think before I respond, especially when I am excited.
Let’s just say, yesterday was one of those days. I was happy and excited and I retweeted a tweet without knowing if the information was factual. Then someone saw it and asked me if I was going to delete it. Y’all, they didn’t know about the blog I had written about it or my fangirl behavior. I’m laughing now, but yesterday, I was a mess. I allowed that person’s comment to make me feel like that weird little girl again. So I unpublished the blog; however, I did not delete the tweet. It wasn’t like I was the only one who had tweeted it.
Anyhoo… yesterday I wrote another blog after I unpublished the original one and I ended it with this–
I went from being happy to feeling weird. This is definitely something I need to work through. Living a life where you feel you can’t fully express yourself isn’t really living, is it?
Less than two weeks to 50. Will I live my life out loud or continue to box myself in because the real Shaun is too much for most?
Not even two hours later I republished my original blog with the caption – “DECIDED TO LIVE!!” I realized that that weird little girl feeling I had was something I had placed on myself. I created the “weird girl” box ages ago and was about to retreat back into it. As I say so very often, I am so grateful God loves me and will not allow me to stay down. After thinking about how I allowed one comment to take me back to a place I thought I had passed, I decided I had a choice, I could keep carrying that box around or destroy it. I decided to destroy it!
I told y’all I’m dropping baggage before I head into this next half of my life. Either I’m going to embrace ALL of me or stay bound. Y’all, I am choosing ALL of me!
Ten more days! Only God knows what other baggage is still left to be released or destroyed. One thing I can say for sure is He’s bringing all of it to the forefront saying you either release it or remain where you are. So, yeah, the ball is definitely in my court.
Okay… I did not intend for this blog to be this long.
Message – Remember to be kind to yourself and embrace ALL of you!
Crazy faith flourishes in the atmosphere of belief. – Pastor Mike Todd
Shaun’s Journal Entry, June 13, 2022
I ended the entry with a screenshot of a post I had shared earlier that year. I won’t share the screenshot, but I will share the message that was attached to it.
Ask, then believe.
Listen, ask for what you desire, then believe it will happen.♥️
It’s Shaun’s World 
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