Where you begin rarely looks like what you envisioned. Give yourself space, time and grace to grow. Don’t give up. You’ll get there!♥️
I’ll get there, eventually. Growing…
On another note, “Savior More Than Life,” by Kirk Franklin and The Family is still on repeat in my head. It’s been like this for days now. I can listen to music all day but once I turn it off, this song pops back up. Is my spirit on auto-worship mode and this is its worship song? Right now I am hearing that I just need to lean into God a little more as if a protection mode has been activated. Whew, Lord. I’m listening.
Well, this is how my day has started. As I stated above, growth is a process and I am still growing. Some days I have no idea if I am still in seed form or if my leaves are finally growing. When will my flowers begin budding? Sighing. Only time and life will tell. Until then, I guess I will lean into God a little more—get all comfy—and allow Him to love on me. Y’all have a wonderful day.
Do not be discouraged. This is not where you are meant to stay. God is growing and preparing you for where you are going.♥️ ~ Shaun
There is so much more to come.
Had to come back and add an update. Yesterday, I came across this exact sermon Pastor Sarah Jakes Roberts had preached in Denver. All I could do was smile and shed a few tears. What if she would have given up after 2018? Just think, everything that transpired over the last year would not have happened.
Y’ALL!!! We have to keep going. I have to keep going. I know deep down there is sooooo much more God has planned for me. This is not where my story ends. Listen, I cannot afford to give up, and neither can you!! We must keep growing. Love you!
Unlike the first two months, this month has not been as revelatory as the first two. I am not going to lie, I felt like I was being ripped apart those first two months. God would reveal areas where I needed to make changes in order to grow and I actually made them. I did not make excuses like I had many times before. No, this time I followed through. And y’all, I am so glad I did. I had no idea how much anxiety and stress was associated with how I had been operating. Now I feel like I am in a better place; a healthier place.
I also started back going to school. It’s a whole other kind of stressor, but I will make it. I am still trying to find a balance between it and life. I do not want to get burned out, nor do I want to be so stressed that I risk my health for a degree. Unlike many of my family members and several of my friends, I have made it to my 50s without hypertension or diabetes and my goal is to keep it this way. So be it if it takes me longer to achieve my goals. Health is truly wealth. I refuse to allow stress to take it.
On a more positive note…
One of my babies is 20 today!!! He stopped by last night after work. Only got to see him for a few minutes before he headed to the dorms, but those few minutes were worth it. I love my baby. Can’t wait to spend the day with him. At least I hope we’re spending the day together. He might have other plans.
Okay… that was about the birthday boy. Now about my princess!
She’s getting married!!!!
Been wanting to write about her engagement since it happened two days ago but had to wait for them to announce it. I cried and screamed—screamed and cried—not screaming now, but I am crying. It was so beautiful. She was absolutely clueless. I had known for months. Keeping it a secret while trying to feel her out about how she truly felt about marriage was one of the hardest things to do. Making sure she didn’t see any of her fiancé’s texts coming through while we were together was also challenging. But now it’s over. She had talked him into going on an adult Disney trip for his birthday. (Before he had always gone with family and never got the full experience.) Little did she know his birthday trip was actually for her. Yes… I am still crying. She deserves the best and I absolutely believe he is it.
They officially met the first day they moved into the dorms in 2013. His cousin was my daughter’s roommate. Just like in the movie Brown Sugar, the bonded over music and have been together ever since. Now they’re literally making music together. He’s her producer. I’m so happy for them and excited to be by her side as she enters another phase of life. She’ll be his wife, but always and forever my baby.
Side note: When I tell you music is powerful! Y’all, it is definitely another love language. Listen, make me a good playlist and I am hooked for life. For real! Laughing. There is just something about music, good music, that takes me to another place. Hence the reason I always have some song playing in my head. It’s like my thoughts come with background music. Crazy, huh?
Anyhoo… cheers to three months on this side of 50. Looking forward to the years to come. I wonder what month #4 will look like. For starters, I am going to see Beyoncé Wednesday!!! If I have nothing else to report about month 4, I can say I attended the Renaissance World Tour! Smiling.
Wishing you an amazingly blessed week. Love you!♥️
Hello! Hello! Hello! I pray you are having a wonderful weekend. Here’s today’s message and a few verses from Matthew Chapter 6:
Keep standing. God’s got you!
Matthew 6:30-34 NIV 30. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith?
31. So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’
32. For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.
33. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
34. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
That’s all I have for now. Please enjoy the rest of your day. Love you!♥️
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