I can’t believe it’s been nine years since I went to see The PASSION Live!
Seems like it was only a few years ago, not almost ten. Wow!
Y’all, how it happened was how so many things have happened in my life. I have a random wish—“I wish I could…”—and it happens. A few days before I went to the event, I saw something on Twitter about it happening in New Orleans—which is basically down the highway from me. At that moment, I thought, “I wish I could go see it.” Not lying… not even a day later, I saw that free tickets were available, and I got one! The rest is history! It was an awesome experience, but it was SO COLD that day.🥶
This memory is so fitting for how I have been feeling the last few days—from what would’ve been my mom’s 67th birthday this past Friday to my daughter leaving today—I must be intentional about cherishing the time I spend with those I love.
You know how one thing leads to or is connected with another? Well, I was looking at photos from January 29, 2023—pictures of my mom—and saw the screenshot below. This led me to check and see what I had posted on that date. Honestly, I wasn’t ready for what I had written.
Probably took the screenshot because 6-24 is my birthday. Seeing that number always makes me smile.
I keep asking myself why I have to be so strong. Why me? I’m tired of being strong alone. JOURNAL ENTRY, JANUARY 29, 2015
In the same entry, I added a quote from Joel Osteen –
“Negative, defeated thoughts will drain your energy. You wouldn’t be facing it if you couldn’t handle it. You’re anointed for this — God would not have allowed it if you weren’t ready for it and equal to it.”
That “I’m tired of being strong alone,” seems to be the story of my life. However, just like Joel said, I wouldn’t be facing it if I couldn’t handle it. Honestly, I’m beginning to believe that being strong alone is my super power. Hmmm…
Anyhoo… I’m going to visit my mom today! This time I’m taking her dog, Nala. I know they will be happy to see each other.
Well, that’s all I have to share today. Y’all, life is one big adventure, let’s make sure we make the best of it.♥️
“Honestly, I’m beginning to believe that being strong alone is my super power.”
I don’t like that statement. I’m not meant to be strong alone. No one is.
One thing is true, though, life is one big adventure. And I do plan to make the best of it.♥️ ~Shaun
I have been going through my videos on TikTok and saving what I can. I had no idea I made so many videos. In my mind, I had only made about 10 over the past few years (I hate being on camera) when in reality, I’ve actually made close to 50. Who knew?!😁 I am glad I had TikTok to document things I didn’t feel comfortable with sharing on Instagram or Facebook—too many familiar and judgmental faces on those platforms.
I documented my time with my mom at the hospital. I also documented moments before she had the seizure that sent her to the ICU for the final time. In the video, I was all chipper talking about my upcoming 50th birthday. I had no idea that an hour or so later, I would never speak to her again. Another was a video I had decided not to share because I hated how I looked. I had left it in Drafts and ended up sharing it a few days after my mom passed. I was so worried about the way I looked, not knowing my momma would die so soon. I knew she was dying, but I just knew she had at least a couple of more weeks to live. The video I made was about God instructing me to stop focusing on everything I needed to do at home and to focus on being there with her. Well, I never shared that video until after she was gone. The way I looked no longer mattered at that moment. My momma was gone. Life…
Well, I said all of that to say, I made a lot of meaningful videos. So many documented memories I can’t afford to lose. I’m so grateful I am able to save what I can.
Since it’s Self-Love Saturday, I have decided to share two videos I made. The first one aligns with today’s theme of dreaming big (March 2023), and the other is one I made after the election (November 2024).
Think BIGGER. Dream BIGGER. And yes, I was still in bed. That’s what I loved about TikTok. I could be my authentic self and no one cared.
Message: We are going to be alright. As I have been saying lately, we were chosen for this moment. God’s got us!
I have more Self-Love Saturday videos I might share over time. I still can’t believe I had so many. They were rarely planned. Anyhoo… Be sure to love on yourself and do something extra special today. You deserve the extra attention.♥️
It’s Shaun’s World 
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