Facebook memory: September 8, 2018 – Caption and picture.
How many of you have tried to rush things and God said, “Be still” or “Be patient”?
I’m not going to lie, I have been feeling pretty low for a few days now. Can’t seem to stop crying. I keep asking myself where is my life headed. Honestly, it seems like my ambitions and dreams have shriveled up. All I’m left with is nothingness. Like, I feel nothing. I want nothing. I’m just here.
Yesterday, my son said I needed to get out the house and go somewhere, anywhere. I was like, all I’ve been doing is going. He said I needed to go somewhere for myself, not to take care of things for someone else. So, we drove down to the coast for lunch. He was right, I needed to do something for me. Now, here I am laying here with my thoughts. I just can’t seem to stop crying. I’ve been patient with myself for years, so why am I not further along? I don’t want to die without achieving my dreams; however, right now, I don’t have any drive to move forward. None. I just want to be.
I know this moment will pass. It always does. But it’s becoming harder and harder to bounce back. This is hard to admit but I’m beginning to feel hopeless. Just being transparent.
2 thoughts on “Wednesday Writings”
It’s the “going through” part of grief, and feelings that we get stuck….be kind to yourself, stop overthinking. The devil can’t have your joy….your peace…your progress! You have so much more to do, it’s God’s will, you can’t change it…you can do this…I’m praying for you!
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Thank you for the prayers. I’m feeling better, now. As long as I stay busy, I don’t think about it. It’s when things get quiet. Life.
Enjoy the rest of your week! I miss y’all on Twitter. Not sure if or when I’ll return for good. Allowing God to lead.