Y’all, something is happening to me and I’m not sure what it is. I try to stay in tune with my emotions/feelings so that I know when things are off. Well, lately I’ve noticed that things have been a little off. For one, I am not as understanding as I used to be. I’m also easily agitated. Like I told someone a couple of weeks ago, I feel like I’m at a stage in my life where I don’t have time for foolishness. I don’t feel like accepting any and everything with a smile. I used to try to be understanding and give grace, now it’s like my patience is almost nonexistent. I haven’t snapped at anyone… yet (cause I do feel it coming on) but I have been short with a few people. I have even caught myself frowning and making faces while listening to nonsense. I used be able to hide it, now whatever I think or feel is clearly written all over my face. When did I become a grumpy old woman? Sighing
Perhaps I’m sleep deprived, or I’m sad or depressed and don’t realize it (my daughter’s thoughts). I don’t know what it is but I don’t like it and have to find a way to change it.
Anyhoo… I know this was another random post. Just needed to release that negative energy. Now let me go find something positive to do.
Already up reading past journal entries so I may as well write. This particular message is a brief summary of what I wrote eight years ago, August 2, 2015.
Message…
Your blessings will find you. You won’t have to seek them out, God will deliver them to you. Remain faithful.
Eight years ago, I was at one of my lowest points in life. I had recently separated from my ex; car was breaking down every other day; house was going into foreclosure; and I didn’t know if I would get the raise that I so badly needed. That was eight years ago. In that same journal entry I wrote –
“I feel like the world is weighing down on me. This load is very heavy, but I thank God for helping me make it daily. The steps forward are very small, but I do know I’m moving forward.”
Despite what I was going through, I knew deep down I was moving forward. Later on that same evening, I had received an email from the department chair saying that they had petitioned for me to receive an even larger increase in my salary from what we had discussed. I didn’t even have to lift a finger. God intervened on my behalf.
Since then, I have been up and I have been down, but never that far down. Even with setbacks I have constantly moved forward. I was listening to a message yesterday where the young lady said your setbacks have made you stronger. And she was right, each setback did make me stronger. What would’ve taken me out eight years ago seems like child’s play today. God is good!
That’s all for today. I haven’t been drawing like I used to. Feel like I’m running out of flowers to draw. Maybe I need to really focus on drawing one thing and perfecting it. I’ll let you know how that works. Until I draw something new, I will reshare from my Facebook memories. Here’s what I shared last year. Be blessed.♥️ ~ Shaun
It’s a new month, a new week and a new day. Today’s the PERFECT day to give that project, goal, dream or relationship that didn’t work out before, another try. Yes.. Try Again!
Wishing you a wonderful month!
If it’s something you truly want to achieve, don’t give up, try again.
This message is so timely. Lately, I have circled back to a few things I had given up on. Things that I felt were too challenging and/or time consuming to achieve at the time. Said I would give them one more try before completely giving up and moving on. One day I’ll share… probably after they are achieved or well established. Trying to stop over sharing but remain transparent.
Anyhoo… That’s all I have for you today. Wishing you a fabulous month! Remember to take care of yourself and enjoy life. Love you!♥️
Ha! Didn’t realize how much writing that last blog would affect me. Y’all, being obedient to God really does take courage. It’s not easy at all. Sometimes you feel like you’re risking it all for promises you have yet to see. You ask yourself over and over if it’s worth it. In the end, you know deep down that your obedience is worth far more than what you thought or think you will lose. Trust God. He’s got you!!!
Being obedient is not always easy, but necessary. Spiritually, I have struggled with being obedient for some time. Although the struggle has became easier since intentionally allowing God to lead, I still struggle with it. I still question whether the moves are right for me, especially when those moves cause uncomfortable shifts. So yeah, I am still working on being obedient. With that being said, I can also proudly say that I am becoming better at listening and complying. Yes… patting myself on the back.
Yesterday, Bishop T.D. Jakes said the following during his sermon – “Your gift will get you there, but your obedience will keep you there.” If I want to stay where I’m going, I must be obedient. Period.
This morning I was scrolling through my Facebook memories and there was the word, “Obedience,” again. This time it was associated with last year’s blog, Hello Sunday July 31, 2022. That particular blog was about me logging off one of my main Twitter (X) accounts.
For several years, I had been struggling with the value I had placed on that account. Basically, it was my life. At first, it allowed me to get away when life became a little too much, but it did not stop there. Later it became my obsession (being very transparent). Sadly, I did not see it at the time – you know it’s hard to see things when you’re right in the middle of it. Y’all, I was obsessed and addicted to it. I was addicted to the interactions and feedback and impressions (yes, I’m a numbers person and Twitter analytics was my best friend). Well, God told me I needed to let it go (I explain all of this in last year’s Hello Sunday). I was never told to deactivate the account, nor delete it, I was simply asked to log off. To log off so that I could get my priorities and focus right. Listen, the way I reacted you would’ve thought He had asked me to throw away my entire life. Y’all, my priorities were not right. All of the glory and praise I should have been giving Him was going elsewhere.
Over the past year, I have logged off, logged on, logged off again, then logged back on… currently, I am logged on. This time I logged back on because I was instructed to do so. I was obedient. Won’t go into detail but the account wasn’t the problem, my obsession and addiction to it was. Until I had learned how to properly handle it, I could not log back on.
Y’all, I am so grateful God loves me. He loves me so much that He even protects me from myself. Honestly, I would not be where I am today had I not been obedient. I would’ve still been stuck where I was, doing the same things and getting nowhere. I’m so glad I listened and obeyed.
I am so much stronger and better equipped because I listened and obeyed.
Listen, social media posts only provide snippets of full events. If you are not privy to the entire content or was not present, you have no idea what to think or believe, especially when someone else creates the narrative. And y’all, sometimes narratives are created to cause confusion. Everyone’s intentions aren’t good and can be purposefully misleading.
Here’s the reason for this blog…
I just watched an individual being dragged on social media for something they did. One angle of the incident that was shared earlier made it appear intentional and malicious. Now, hours later, another angle has been shared along with additional footage and context. What was earlier considered disrespectful is now being seen as a miscommunication. Hmm… imagine that.
Y’all, relationships have been damaged and some have even ended because something was taken out of context. Nowadays, we have to be careful not to form opinions, or choose sides, based on the first thing we see or hear. Wait for the backstory first. And if additional information isn’t provided, or there’s no way to verify the information, please refrain from sharing thoughts or opinions until you gather more info – valid info. Without all of the pieces you may find yourself in the wrong and on the downside of a relationship.
Also, people misinterpret things every day. A simple “Hello,” can mean one thing to one person and another to someone else. We’re human, we’re all wired differently.
My advice, at least what I’m doing–
Extend grace and mind your own business. If it doesn’t directly affect you, let it go. If it does, find out more information before jumping to conclusions.
Woke up with Smokie Norful’s, “I Need A Word,” playing over and over in my head. Here are the lyrics courtesy of LyricFind and Capitol Christian Music Group.
The noise of my day The depression that steals my voice The confusion that arrests my life So I can’t even make a choice
Life seems so loud I’ve been too proud So Lord, what do I do? I just need a word from You
Oh, I need a word Tell me which way to turn I need a word Tell me which way I should go I need a word To tell me just what to do Please send a word God, I need to hear from You Drown out the noise Let me hear Your voice I need a word from You
Ooh, oh, I just got bad news Life just darkened my day My family is in need And I just cant seem to make a way, oh
Life seems so loud I’ve been too proud But I’m asking you now Lord, send a word from You
I need a word Tell me which way to turn I need a word Tell me which was I should go I need a word Tell me what should I do, Lord I need a word I need a word from You Drown out the noise Let me hear Your voice Oh Lord, I know need a word from You
I hear You Lord, I hear You say
Stand still and know that You are God Stand still and believe You’ll work it out Stand still and see my victory walk right in ‘Cause with You, I will win
I need a word Greater is He that’s in me than He that’s in the world I need Your word No weapon formed against me shall be able to prosper Drown out the noise Let me hear Your voice I need a word From You
It’s growing season. You are being pruned. Lean into God.
Praying you have a wonderfully, blessed week. Love you!♥️
Last night, my daughter and I were discussing timing and how we can now see that if things would have worked out according to our timetables, we would not have been properly prepared to handle the things that came along with them. That was when it dawned on me that we were and are being protected.
If things have not happened yet, accept that it’s not time, and that you are being protected. Stay under God’s protection.♥️ ~Shaun
Stay protected.
On another note (gonna try to make this short by using screenshots where I can)…
So, a couple of days ago I forgot to check my Facebook Memories. Y’all, I rarely forget. It’s like part of my morning routine. Well, sometime Thursday evening a memory popped up that prompted me to check my other memories. When I tell you God is always on time! Here’s what I shared based on one of the memories:
Facebook Post: July 27, 2023
Can’t believe I am just now looking at my Facebook Memories from July 27th. I usually look at them first thing in the morning, but for some reason I didn’t today. Had forgotten all about them. Thankfully a story I shared last year popped up and jogged my memory. I needed to see this particular post today. When I reshared it in 2019, I shared it with Tyler Perry’s quote, “When you pray, believe.” Back then, that quote was relevant for where I was.
Today, another quote taken from his caption has resonated with me. It is a question he asked himself, “God, why would you put all of these dreams inside of me and not show me a way to accomplish them.” Y’all, I feel him on this. I have so many dreams. Some would probably say I have too many. That I need to narrow them down, but I can’t. I want to accomplish them all.🤷🏽♀️😢
As Mr. Perry did, I am going to continue to work towards them until something happens. I know God is working behind the scenes. I KNOW that one day everything will happen. In today’s blog I wrote the following:
“Here is what I have learned and am still learning – my job is to lean into God, allow Him to lead, move when He says move and be still when He says be still. AND I must do ALL of this while operating from a space of peace. Talk about challenging, but if He believes I am capable of doing it, then I can do it.”
I will continue to stay in prayer while waiting and listening for my next moves.♥️
That was two days ago. Here are a few screenshots from today’s Facebook memories.
“I love who I am Becoming,” July 29, 2022July 29, 2022–Response to the next screenshot originally shared on July 29, 2018.July 29, 2018
Y’all, I can’t help but tear up. I’m doing exactly what I set out to do. Yes, I have a lot of dreams, and guess what – I’m achieving them ALL! AND I have many, many more to achieve.
Listen, if God has put dreams in your heart, please don’t allow others’ success or progress make you feel like you are:
Behind – Girl, you’re 50 and just now getting started.
On the wrong track – You should be doing XYZ and making money.
Your goals are unattainable or unrealistic – Girl, you are nowhere near qualified for what you want and where you want to be, and never will be.Get your head out of the clouds.
Block distractions and silence those voices (yours specifically) that tell you your dreams are too big, unrealistic or impossible. For we know, and must remember, that with God ALL things are possible.
That’s all I have to share today. I know it was a lot. Praying you have a wonderful weekend. Thanks for reading.♥️
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