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Woke up this morning feeling so blessed!
Y’all, I can’t believe I will be 50 years old next Saturday! 50…. 5-0… Half a century!! Yes, ME!! Can’t you tell I’m excited! Smile
Y’all, God has been so very good to me… so good. I am truly, truly blessed!
I cannot end without thanking God for His love, mercy and grace. Yes, I’m most definitely blessed.
Year 50 is loading…
P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBORAH!!! Wishing you many, many blessings. Love you!
Shaun
Choose kindness, even when handling yourself. Always, always, always be kind.♥️ ~Shaun
So let’s talk about yesterday. Yesterday I found myself dealing with an issue I thought I had mastered– loving and accepting ALL of me.
Yesterday, I allow someone’s words, spoken with good intentions, make me feel like the weird little girl who always spoke before she thought. Yes, that was me. Whatever I thought came out, and always at the oddest moments, especially when I was excited.
Well, it still happens today. My siblings and kids are always reminding me that I sometimes say weird or unfiltered things. The crazy thing is I have absolutely no idea when I’ve said something wrong or weird until it’s pointed out. So now, I always try to think before I respond, especially when I am excited.
Let’s just say, yesterday was one of those days. I was happy and excited and I retweeted a tweet without knowing if the information was factual. Then someone saw it and asked me if I was going to delete it. Y’all, they didn’t know about the blog I had written about it or my fangirl behavior. I’m laughing now, but yesterday, I was a mess. I allowed that person’s comment to make me feel like that weird little girl again. So I unpublished the blog; however, I did not delete the tweet. It wasn’t like I was the only one who had tweeted it.
Anyhoo… yesterday I wrote another blog after I unpublished the original one and I ended it with this–
I went from being happy to feeling weird. This is definitely something I need to work through. Living a life where you feel you can’t fully express yourself isn’t really living, is it?
Less than two weeks to 50. Will I live my life out loud or continue to box myself in because the real Shaun is too much for most?
Not even two hours later I republished my original blog with the caption – “DECIDED TO LIVE!!” I realized that that weird little girl feeling I had was something I had placed on myself. I created the “weird girl” box ages ago and was about to retreat back into it. As I say so very often, I am so grateful God loves me and will not allow me to stay down. After thinking about how I allowed one comment to take me back to a place I thought I had passed, I decided I had a choice, I could keep carrying that box around or destroy it. I decided to destroy it!
I told y’all I’m dropping baggage before I head into this next half of my life. Either I’m going to embrace ALL of me or stay bound. Y’all, I am choosing ALL of me!
Ten more days! Only God knows what other baggage is still left to be released or destroyed. One thing I can say for sure is He’s bringing all of it to the forefront saying you either release it or remain where you are. So, yeah, the ball is definitely in my court.
Okay… I did not intend for this blog to be this long.
Message – Remember to be kind to yourself and embrace ALL of you!
Love you!
Shaun
“Just believe!” We say it all the time in passing. However, most of us never put too much thought into it, we just say it. As we all know, the action of believing is much more than a thought.
Question – How strong is your belief system?
According to last year’s journal entry (June 10, 2022), I was watching Bishop T. D. Jakes sermon, “Hurdles to Wholeness.” Think I need to rewatch it.
In his message, he spoke of faulty belief systems and how we will only rise to the levels of our beliefs. Hmmm
Here are a few more questions–
Do you believe in what you are believing for?
Or
Are you all talk and either, do not really want it… or… you do not believe you will receive it?
According to Bishop Jakes, however you respond to those questions will dictate where you go in life.
I guess you can say my Saturday has started off DEEP! Whew!! Wasn’t expecting an assignment for this morning. Time for me to reevaluate my belief system(s)–thought I was good–and make some necessary changes. Y’all, I am really serious about not taking baggage into the next half of my life, and part of that baggage is a faulty belief system. Either I want what I say I want or not!
On another note…
Two more weeks until Year 50 is here! Don’t have anything planned, but I am still excited. I actually feel like I’m getting ready to cross over into a new space in life. I used to believe I needed to bring in 50 by doing something huge. Something I could take pictures of and say, “I did that!” Now, it’s all about the big show that’s happening on the inside. I’m excited about where God is taking me spiritually, mentally and emotionally. Once those are in check, everything else will follow. Yeah… I’m excited!
Thank for reading! Praying you have a wonderful weekend.♥️
Shaun
Was scrolling through my Twitter feed and saw a face I had not seen in years. I just smiled. They were still doing them. When I tell you, that one face was all the confirmation I needed for why I cannot go back to what I once knew. It’s also confirmation that it is time to move on from where I am, presently.
Actress KJ Smith tweeted the following–
“I used to ride for a lot of people who never rode for me…the end of an era…”
I felt this to my core. I used to put my entire being into others goals and dreams because I absolutely loved seeing them win. In the end, I discovered that they would have never done the same for me.
As KJ said, it’s the end of an era. Going forward, I am not going to invest more into others than I do myself.
Year 50 is loading.
After my mom died, I started purging things I had been holding on to for years. These were things I just could not bring myself to let go of. Today, I need to finish purging. I refuse to take that weight with me into the next part of my life. It’s time to make room for my future.
Yes, a new era is dawning.
Feeling grateful and blessed.♥️
Shaun
Stay true to your authentic self. Either they will love and accept you as you are, or not. If not, move on.♥️ ~ Shaun
Happiness is not something you postpone for the future; it is something you design for the present.
Author Unknown
God is doing some amazing things, and I am finally happy and present enough to enjoy them.
Taking selfies is my own personal love language. It’s me saying, “Shaun, I see you. I love you. I got you.”
It’s Shaun’s World 
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