Since I’m awake I might as well write. December 2020 is finally here. Y’all, we made to the end of the year!
A year ago I shared the attached quote on Facebook. The last sentence says, “And even if you lose, you just can’t lose.” Hmm…
Yesterday I was in a mood. A friend and I were texting about how we remember things versus how they actually happened. I told her that my journal entries always set me straight. I recall things one way, then go back and read journal entries from that period. Almost half of the time my recollections are not quite the way I remembered. Sometimes I was hurt far worse than I remembered, or loved much harder than I remembered. After texting her a few examples of what I thought happened versus what really happened, she said, “Don’t you wish you could go back with the knowledge you have now.” Well, that one statement put me in a mood. For hours all I could think about was why didn’t I do this or that. Why did things not happen for me? Y’all, I wasted hours thinking about things that happened over the last 20+ years. Talk about crazy! Unfortunately, I fell asleep feeling a little down. However, I woke up to several encouraging messages to include this memory.
Even though I looked back and thought about how I could have done things differently, it wasn’t meant to be. What was meant to be, is. I wanted more. My vision was higher and still is. I refused to settle. So yes, I suffered heartbreaks and what seemed like failures, but my story is not over. I only have one life and I refuse to settle for less than God’s absolute best. So am I losing? Nah.. I’m winning!
God is good. Enjoying the ride!
Shaun
It’s Shaun’s World 
I agree with recollections and crosschecking with journals especially on the extent of the experience. Just had to go through one of my old ones over the weekend and was a little surprised at it. But I also like the fact that we can forget. There are things that happen in the moment and you are like ‘I’ll never forget…’ but eventually you do, you move on. Its a shame that it also applies to the good but it does.
I absolutely love the quote you put. I’m winning! too.
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Yes! You’re winning!💕
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Ahhh. Such a touching entry. Had anything in your life changed, we might not be privileged enough to know you now. What a loss that would be.
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Thank you!💕💕💕
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