Life

It’s Shaun’s World

The other day while I was doing a little soul searching, I had one of my aha moments. My journey, my world, is an experience that is meant to be shared in real time. As I have said many times before, if I wanted transparency from others, I needed to be transparent myself. My tests and testimonies are meant to be shared now, daily; not in a book later.

Y’all, my life is not perfect. You’re surprised, right?! Laughing. Nope, it’s far from perfect. Here I am, 50 years old, and still do not have life figured out. Sometimes I feel like a twenty year old who believes they still have time to make mistakes until they figure out what works for them. Then there are other times when I feel like I need to buckle down and be serious about life. The latter usually happens after I see people with their stuff together.

Honestly… and I am being so transparent and serious right now… I cannot pinpoint exactly when my life changed. Most of my life I was so serious about what I wanted out of life and was adamant about getting it. Yes, there were setbacks, but I always bounced back with a force to be and do better. I had dreams and goals. Now it’s like my drive is gone. Seems like I spend most of my time chasing the drive rather than the dream. My momentum seems to come in spurts. Basically, I’m tired. That’s it! I’m tired. I’m tired of being in charge. I’m tired of making decisions. I’m tired of taking care of everybody and everything. I’m tired of chasing a forever moving target. I have been in charge of, taking care of, and making decisions for other people since I was around five years old (that’s as far back as I can remember having to do so) and I am straight tied (not tired).

One of my life long goals was to retire before age 50 and live out the rest of my life doing whatever I pleased. Well, I actually retired twelve years ago. While I was manifesting my retirement I should have been manifesting some good money to go along with the retirement. Just saying. Laughing.

I can’t lie, I am actually living in what I wanted, what I manifested (I’m telling you it’s real). So why am I 1) still trying to do things I really do not want to do and 2) not fully enjoying this time I have been blessed to have? Again, it’s like I am chasing a drive that’s no longer here instead of resting in God’s goodness as I should be.

I’ll figure things out sooner or later. I guess this is what Year50 is all about–figuring out how I truly want to live out the rest of my life. Will I continue trying to do things I have no desire to do (because it’s surely not working) or do what I really want to do?

Anyhoo… only time will tell. I pray y’all have a wonderful weekend. Love you!♥️

Shaun

Life

Again, Stay Protected

Y’all, when I say this message is weighing so heavily on me today. Last Thursday I shared this message and I feel so compelled to share it again. Please, please, please stay under God’s protection. Use your discernment before acting. If it doesn’t feel right, it’s not right. It may look good on the surface, but underneath it’s meant to destroy you. Whew!!!

Listen, I have never liked doomsday messages so believe me, this is not that. The Bible says that the thief comes to steal, kill and destroy–John 10:10. Stick with God. Stay under His protection. I am a living witness that when something doesn’t feel right, it’s not. If something seems too good to be true, and you KNOW God was guiding you somewhere different, then do not accept what’s being offered. You may feel like you made the biggest mistake in the world by not accepting what was offered; however, when you look back months, maybe even be years later, you will realize you made the best decision. Slow progression the right way is better than fast progression the wrong way.

Whew! That’s all I have for you. Listen, dodge that bullet! Stay protected. And watch God work!

Love you!♥️

Shaun

From last Thursday’s blog. There’s a shift happening and it’s so important that we stay under God’s protection. Amen
Life

Submit and Commit to the Process

You cannot start, skip the middle (the process), and go straight to the end. Nothing in life happens this way.

Short story…

When I was a teen, I wanted to play the piccolo. My sister and one of the girls at church played the flute. Well, I did not want to be like them (always had to be difficult different). I wanted to play the piccolo. Everyone I asked about how I should get started said that I would have to learn to play the flute first. Y’all, I wasn’t even in band or interested in playing other instruments, but I was drawn to the piccolo. I believe it was because it was so tiny and cute. I’m a sucker for tiny, cute things. Well, starting with the flute was not going to happen so I never played the piccolo. One day I’m just going to buy one and teach myself to play. That’s what YouTube is for, right? Laughing

Anyhoo… this is how my life has been since as far back as I can remember. I want what I want and I want it how I want it. Don’t judge me. Over time I have gotten better. Listen, I hate all of the in between stuff. I say I love watching God work (the progression) in my life; however, sometimes I feel He can skip a few steps. Y’all, my patience for getting from points A to Z is very short. Not sure if it’s my attention span (because I swear I have ADHD), or if I am just impatient. Either way… at 50 years old… I am finally completely submitting to God’s plan (I might get sidetracked every now and then– Lol) and following all of His steps. If I want XYZ, I have to go through the entire process. Y’all, I have to stop being so stubborn. Ugh!

My mantra for this current season is “I am submitting and committing to the process.”

Hope you have a wonderful weekend! Love you.♥️

Shaun

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Expect the Unexpected

Blessings are headed your way! Expect the unexpected.♥️ ~Shaun

God is so good! Just keep praising and honoring Him unconditionally, and I guarantee He WILL bless you.
Life

Stay Protected

Just because your intentions are pure doesn’t mean everyone else’s are. Stay true to who you are and keep doing what you do. Use your God-given discernment to stay protected. In other words, if it doesn’t feel right, it’s not right.♥️ ~Shaun

God always reveals the truth, but it’s up to us to accept it. Discernment is invaluable. We must learn to use it.
Life

Willing to Eat Alone

As soon as I got to my dad’s and hugged everyone, my sister waited until we were alone to ask if I had found a “boo” yet. Laughing as I think about it because that’s like the first thing everyone asks me. I’m so happy my dad has finally stopped asking. His thought now is that I’m too mean. Now, why would he think that? Laughing. I just don’t have time for nonsense.

With all that being said, I know I have written about being ready to love again, and at times I feel it more than others. However, I am actually good with where I am. No longer in a hurry, especially since it didn’t happen before 50. Yeah… 50 was my deadline for finding love. Now I’m like it happens when it happens.

Back to my conversation with my sister. So she tells me that my ex is in a relationship (she saw it on Facebook). Even though I don’t follow him on Facebook, I know he’s been in a relationship for a few years now. Didn’t think it was worth discussing. That’s his business. Anyhoo, she goes on to say that I can’t let him outdo me. That I need to find me a boo too. Hilarious! Baby, this is not a competition. Shaking my head laughing.

Just saw this quote a few minutes ago. Basically, it sums up how I feel about being in a relationship.

More than willing to eat alone until then.

Listen, I don’t have to settle for any old table just to keep up with someone else, nor do I have to rush a thing. Just because I am ready to love again doesn’t mean I am desperate. I’m kind of glad God didn’t do things on my timetable because I probably would have settled. He really does know what’s best.

Grateful♥️

Life

It’s Okay to Cry

Needed this Facebook memory. Last night, I was thinking about my mom and kept saying to myself, “Don’t cry.” I didn’t want to cry. I hate crying about negative things. Now, happy tears, I will cry happy tears all day. However, whenever the tears want to come when I am sad, hurt, heartbroken, frustrated or mad, I try to hold them in. I try to convince myself that I am strong enough to take blows without producing tears. Those tears make me feel weak and vulnerable so I try to hold them in. So, this particular memory I needed to see. I have a lot of built up tears on the inside that I need to release.

Facebook Memory: August 11, 2023

Heartbroken? Disappointed? Feeling BLAH? OR Just need to cry? Listen, do it because life is hard and your tears will NEVER be wasted. They will either water something new, revive something you believed was dying, or cleanse your soul (gem from my 8th grade Spanish teacher☺️). So cry! Believe me, you’ll feel sooo much better afterwards.♥️

I know I’m not the only one who needs a little soul cleansing. So cry. Get it out! Those tears will never be wasted.♥️

Praying you have an absolutely amazing weekend. Love you!♥️

Shaun

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Hmmm…

Have you ever found yourself worried about what others would think if you did XYZ? Even if you don’t want to admit it, you know you have. Well, while you were deep in thought trying make sure whatever you were planning was acceptable or palatable for others, at any moment did you ask yourself, “What will God think?”. Will He approve? Will He disapprove? Will He get the glory?

In my opinion, most of the time we consider God’s thoughts after we have already made our decisions. Although His thoughts do matter to us, we tend to believe He could not possibly understand human affairs. I mean, how could He? Especially in today’s world. So we do our thing and leave Him to handle the spiritual and supernatural stuff.

Question–What would happen if we consulted God first? Would we do what He wanted us to do (y’all remember WWJD)? Or, would we do what we wanted, then ask for forgiveness later?

I believe most of US (because I’m definitely included in this) hear that still small voice saying, “I’m here. My thoughts matter,” and we tune it out until we need help. Just pitiful. Lol

Just thinking: Would a harmonious world be boring? Does conflict keep things interesting? Guess that’s a question only God can answer. Smile. My thought – Conflict is necessary. Who wants to live in a world of Barbies – fabulous movie. Yes, I believe conflict is necessary but should never become violent.

Anyhoo, let me go before I write even more. This Zyrtec is really kicking in.

Love you! Enjoy your day.♥️

Shaun