Tag: gratitude

Life

Willing to Eat Alone

Shaun Bradford

As soon as I got to my dad’s and hugged everyone, my sister waited until we were alone to ask if I had found a “boo” yet. Laughing as I think about it because that’s like the first thing everyone asks me. I’m so happy my dad has finally stopped asking. His thought now is that I’m too mean. Now, why would he think that? Laughing. I just don’t have time for nonsense.

With all that being said, I know I have written about being ready to love again, and at times I feel it more than others. However, I am actually good with where I am. No longer in a hurry, especially since it didn’t happen before 50. Yeah… 50 was my deadline for finding love. Now I’m like it happens when it happens.

Back to my conversation with my sister. So she tells me that my ex is in a relationship (she saw it on Facebook). Even though I don’t follow him on Facebook, I know he’s been in a relationship for a few years now. Didn’t think it was worth discussing. That’s his business. Anyhoo, she goes on to say that I can’t let him outdo me. That I need to find me a boo too. Hilarious! Baby, this is not a competition. Shaking my head laughing.

Just saw this quote a few minutes ago. Basically, it sums up how I feel about being in a relationship.

More than willing to eat alone until then.

Listen, I don’t have to settle for any old table just to keep up with someone else, nor do I have to rush a thing. Just because I am ready to love again doesn’t mean I am desperate. I’m kind of glad God didn’t do things on my timetable because I probably would have settled. He really does know what’s best.

Grateful♥️

Life

Hello Sunday

Shaun Bradford

I actually slept all night! Believe I fell asleep around 11 PM and didn’t wake up until 5 AM. I needed the sleep.

Yesterday, one of my friends drove down to have lunch with me and we talked for hours. Y’all, I needed the company. I needed to feel like an individual again. I needed to feel like Shaun again. It felt so good to be able to freely express myself without judgement or tiptoeing around feelings. Grateful for true friendships.

I’m going to leave you with a few gems from August 6th (wish I could share them all):

Facebook Memories

All it takes is ONE.

There’s only ONE you. Chosen.♥️

I have loved basketball for decades (since high school). Went to one BIG3 game and knew I wanted to own a team. Optimistic.😊

Trust God’s plan.

I pray that you have a joyful day. Love you!♥️

Shaun

Life

Present and At Peace

Shaun Bradford

Had forgotten about the theme I had chosen for this year, “Present and at peace.” Life started happening and my focus shifted from drawing from my inner peace to focusing on things happening around me. And about a good 90 percent of those things were someone else’s problems. My daughter says I internalize other people’s problems. She says it’s okay to empathize with them but their problems are theirs. And she’s absolutely right. I’m listening.

So today, I am once again choosing to stay present – only focusing on what’s in front of me – and at peace. Praying you do likewise. Have a wonderful day!♥️ ~Shaun

Staying present isn’t easy but it is so necessary to remain at peace.
Life

I Received My Answer

Shaun Bradford

I’m not sure what’s going on with me waking up around 3:00/3:30 AM nowadays. Like, I’m wide awake. Then around 5:30/6:00 AM, I find myself falling back to sleep. At first it was annoying, but now I just start everything two hours earlier, then take a nap before officially getting up. Anyhoo…

After waking up with Marvin Winans’ song, Draw Me Close to You/Thy Will Be Done, playing over and over in my head, and much needed prayer time with God, I received my answers. I know what’s wrong. Not going to go into details because those revelations were just for me. Now that I understand what the problems are, I can deal with them. Now, how I choose to do it is totally up to me.

Here’s what I’ll call one of the “solutions” to the revelations. Listen, it had me shaking my head and smiling at the same time. Y’all God is so good. It’s an excerpt from one of my journal entries from this date. Debating whether or not to share the entire entry. Will let you know what I actually decided before I hit publish.

Shaun’s Journal Entry: August 4, 2014

So I’ve decided not to fight it any longer. I may as well give in and just let things be. No, I’m not happy, but as I’ve told others many times before, make yourself happy. So life has given me a barrel of lemons & grapefruit. Time to make sour punch (sounds gross huh?). Oh well…

God will work it out. Turn it over to Jesus, he will work it out! He can, he can, work it out. You won’t even have to touch it. Hallelujah!!

Although that entry was about something completely unrelated to what I am currently going through, I believe it was written for this very moment. Nine years ago, God already knew exactly what I would need to get through this time. So yes, I’m smiling and now tearing up. I needed those words of encouragement. I’m turning everything over to God. I won’t have to lift a finger or touch a thing. He will work it out. Amen

By the way, I shared the entire entry. All of it was relevant. I keep telling y’all God loves me. Smiling

Praying you have a blessed weekend. Thanks for reading. Love you!♥️

Shaun