Attempting to wind down but the song, “My Testimony,” by Marvin Sapp keeps playing over and over in my head. I guess my soul is having its own late night praise and worship session. The song says:
So if you see me cry it’s just a sign that I’m, I’m still alive, oh yeah, I got some scars, but I’m still alive In spite of calamity He still has a plan for me And it’s working for my good and it’s building my testimony
Y’all, I made it! I actually made it through. When I look back over my life and all the things I have gone through; things that should have taken me out; things that made me want to quit; all I can do is praise God.
In my previous post, I mentioned receiving an invite to a media training that awakened so many dreams. Well, here’s what I wrote afterwards:
Shaun’s Journal Entry: June 3, 2014
New Orleans was definitely a great professional experience. I came back with a sense of worth. I felt like I could actually accomplish my goals. I now have a different outlook on life & my role in this universe. I am destined for greatness & there’s nothing wrong with it. Thank you God for helping me realize my potential. Please give me the knowledge, strength, courage, and intelligence to do things the correct way. I thank you so much for the favor!
Y’all, there are so many key elements in that entry that I had no idea I would struggle with over the years that followed. Didn’t see any of it coming. When I tell you my life was disrupted for real! Whew!! But I made it!!!
One of my biggest struggles, which I believe is the reasoning behind the self-sabotage, is this one statement: “I am destined for greatness…”
Y’all, that was a very bold statement. I saw it. I felt it. And over the years whenever I felt it creeping up again, I would shut it down. Every. Single. Time.
Very interesting revelation, isn’t it? Had no idea I was even doing it.
Moving forward, I am going to keep the same prayer in mind—
God, please give me the knowledge, strength, courage, and intelligence to do things the correct way. Amen
I believe if I make this prayer the center of all future endeavors, I will be okay.
Here’s to 10 years!🎉🎉
Yes… this is Year50…♥️
Shaun
Here are a few pictures from my trip and the invite from this day ten years ago. Still can’t believe it’s been ten years.
“God, move as You choose. It’s not about me, but about You. I am Your child and Your vessel. I know that You have great things in store for me. Please, let me not run away from situations when they become too uncomfortable, or take things into my own hands. You are in control and I trust You. More of You, less of me. Amen”
Here’s today’s Facebook memory from two years ago.
Facebook Memory: May 3, 2022
How often have you become so distracted by the hows and whens that you lose sight of the promise? Even though you can’t clearly see the outcome, keep believing. Eventually, the promise will come to fruition.♥️
This was two years ago and I still have to remind myself to stay focused on the promise. Unlike then, when I was focused on the how and when, I am now faced with my hesitancy to become uncomfortable. On this side of fifty, I have found myself asking if the promise—my goals, dreams and aspirations—is worth giving up this nice, comfortable space I have created. Believe me, it has been a struggle because the how and when are actually happening now.
I am slowly but surely letting this comfortable space go because I want the promise more than my comfort. Y’all, there is no way God has brought me to the door of the promise and I not walk through it. Nope! Not this time.♥️
Never give up on your goals or dreams. They may not happen when or the way you envisioned them to, but they will happen.
This has been my prayer, lately:
Lord, please let me be able to recognize and receive what I dreamed. Please let my ego and stubbornness die so that I can enjoy every blessing You have for me.More of You, less of me.
I know my purpose is too great for me to keep getting in my own way. Yes, sometimes I get in the way of my own blessings, dreams, and goals. Not anymore. It’s time for me to see my goals and dreams fulfilled. There’s so much for me to do!♥️
Just dropping in to say “Hello!” I have scrolled through my Facebook memories several times and I am not really feeling what I shared on this day; so, there won’t be a Facebook memory for my first post. Maybe for my second post. I also read through a few journal entries from today, and still nothing. I have to feel somewhat connected to what I share, and today nothing stands out.
By the way, nothing is wrong. I’m not sad or depressed. Just don’t feel like being on “10” this morning. Today is more like a “5,” pretty mellow. I am allowed a moment like this, right? Laughing
Think I will turn over and go back to sleep for a few more minutes.
Wishing you a beautiful day!♥️
Love you,
Shaun
Thought I’d create something to go with the mood. (Giggles)
Life is definitely one interesting ride. If you really want to live, buckle up!♥️ ~Shaun
Facebook Memory: April 29, 2022
Welcome to this ride called, Life! Life is full of twists and turns, ups and downs, highs and lows. Just when you think you have things figured out, you discover you don’t. My advice– Buckle up and go with the flow. TRUST GOD. He’s ALWAYS in control!
Set yourself free! Release past hurts, guilt, disappointments and shame. Harboring even the smallest resentment can make it difficult to receive and enjoy blessings. Release opens doors for receiving love, joy, opportunities, and success. Let go and be free!
It’s true, if you want your life to change for the better, you have to let things go. Holding on to past hurts, grudges, disappointments, and even shame, only hurts you. It also stops you from fully growing and receiving all of God’s wonderful blessings. Listen, I don’t know about you, but I don’t only want some of my blessings. No… l want all of my blessings. Every last single one. Smile. Let it go!
On another note— My daughter came home yesterday for her friends’ wedding and is leaving this afternoon. So, I am going to spend as much time as I can loving on her before she leaves. Smiling
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