June is finally here!! As usual, I’m celebrating ALL month long! Might even carry it over into July! I’m pretty sure I’ll celebrate the entire summer when I turn 50. Baby, I’m ready!!! Oh… and just wait til I turn 100!!!! Whew!!💃🏽💃🏽💃🏽
No longer looking at the doors that closed. Only focusing on the open ones. Photo Credit: Unknown
Thought this memory was kind of cute. As you can see, I mentioned that for my 50th birthday I would celebrate the entire summer. Never imagined I would celebrate the entire year. Lol. Now I have to figure out how I’ll celebrate my 100th.
Well, the celebration for Year51 has already begun, and I am enjoying every minute of it.
Today marks the first day of the final month of my Jubilee year, #Year50. When I tell you it’s been some year! A lot of ups and downs, twists and turns, PRUNING (there was a lot) and growing; and I made it! BEYOND grateful for God’s love, mercy, and grace. Loving this side of 50.🌺
Smiling from ear to ear! Y’all, it’s the final month of my jubilee year! YAY!!!
Today, I can happily report that I am not the same person I was last year. Not the same at all! I asked God to make this side of 50 different, and He is doing just that. Not much has changed physically or outwardly since last year; however, so much has changed internally. Y’all, my mindset is different. If you know anything about the process of change, you know that it has to happen in the mind first. When I tell you I am soooo very proud of me!
In last year’s journal entry, I listed 50 things I wanted to achieve over the next 10 years. The list was very random. I even wrote to write the first things that came to mind, not to overthink it. Well, after revisiting the list, I believe everything I wrote is actually achievable. I can see and feel myself achieving them.
Okay…this message is mainly for myself. However, if it resonates with you, by all means, use it.
More and more I am feeling the urge to drop everything and only focus on myself—which is something I have been struggling to do for a while now. Every time I think, “This is it!”, I end up doing the exact opposite. Last night, my 21 year old niece reminded me that my kids are grown and I should be living it up. And she’s right, I should be. My kids have been saying the same since my son started college. Well, after the year I have had, I believe it’s time for me to start listening. They are doing well, and everyone else will be just fine. Now, it’s my time. It’s time for me to finally live!♥️ ~Shaun
Honestly, today is the first day in my Jubilee celebration that I actually feel like doing something special. Y’all, the first several months of my 50th were no joke. From attempting to celebrate my actual birthday without grieving my mom’s death to being determined to make this side of 50 different, I was going through. Then, the pruning, pulling, peeling, and prodding I experienced afterwards was like nothing I had experienced before. Felt like I was in some kind of spiritual/growth boot camp. Today, I feel like I’m finally approaching graduation.
Four more months until Year51! I have to admit I’m kind of sad my year long celebration is coming to an end. It wasn’t what I expected; however, it was definitely what I needed to make this half of my century different…better. I am so glad God does not always give us what we want, but He always gives us what we need. Amen
Okay… Why am I now hearing Gloria Estefan singing, “Coming Out of the Dark”? (Laughing) I keep telling you my thoughts come with their own background music. I guess this picture represents me finally seeing the light. Hilarious!
That’s all I have at the moment. I believe almost a third (more like a quarter) of my posts this week have been original. Hopefully next week will be better. By the way, I watched Tyler Perry’s Mea Culpa last night and now I know what paint scene everyone was referring to. I was like I think I’ve been doing this painting thing all wrong. Laughing. It was a good movie. Didn’t expect the ending at all. Have to watch it again.♥️
Today is my bonus mom’s birthday! Didn’t quite know how I would feel when today came since my biological mom is no longer here. Plus, it’s also a reminder that my biological mom’s birthday is coming up (February 21) and I won’t be able to celebrate it with her. Yep… I am feeling pretty emotional this morning.
My Jewel—her name is actually Jewel—is one of a kind. She has been in my life since I was about three weeks old, so my entire life. She tells everyone I was her first baby, even though she was pregnant with my late brother at the time of my birth. I have always loved her just as much as I loved my mom. Sometimes I feel guilty because I still have a mother here with me and my siblings do not. I feel so guilty that I rarely mention her around them. Like today’s her birthday and out of respect for them, I am not going to post anything on Facebook. However, I will celebrate her here. When God blessed me with her, He blessed me with a gem. So, how can I not celebrate my blessing.
My jewel.♥️
I have to take some updated pictures. Been using the same one for years. My sister and I have so many pictures with my dad, but not many with Momma. Gotta change that…TODAY! Yes, I will be seeing her in a few hours. I am working an hour away from her today so I am planning a surprise visit. Can’t wait to see her and love on her a little.
That’s all for now. Thanks for reading. I pray y’all have a great day.
Love you,
Shaun
But y’all, I miss my Momma.I miss her soooo much.♥️
Honestly, I did not know what I would share today. I guess I am in my feelings. Today is my daughter’s 29th birthday and she’s over 300 miles away. It’s not like we have never celebrated from a distance before. Last year she was in New York. The year before, Miami. This year is just different.
I thought about getting on the road and going to surprise her. However, it’s raining here and raining there. Had to think about safety. Plus, we actually celebrated before she left. So why is today different?
Anyhoo…
I am so proud of the woman she has become. She is everything I hoped and dreamed for and sooo much more. I admire her strength, I adore her passion, and I respect her honesty. I also love the way she loves me. I never imagined being loved and cared for so deeply. Y,all, it still blows my mind that I am a mother. I am so looking forward to getting to know the woman she is becoming. Smiling
My Aquarius Baby – Independent (from birth), loyal, creative, visionary, strong willed, and straightforward. Yep… she’s my heart.♥️
Happy 50 years 7 months to me!! Yay!! Still can’t believe I am 50! What a blessing.
As you know, today is the day my daughter is moving to another state. In fact, she and her fiancé just left. No tears, only smiles. They are in God’s hands.
Just thinking about how around 29 years ago my baby girl was preparing to make her debut. I guess you can say I am feeling what I felt the day she entered the world. It was the day my life changed and I began my new journey as a mother. Now, another journey is beginning. Smiling
At this moment I can hear Mariah Carey singing, “Butterfly.”
When you love someone so deeply They become your life It’s easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside Blindly I imagined I could Keep you under glass Now I understand to hold you I must open up my hands And watch you rise …
So flutter through the sky Butterfly Fly Spread your wings and fly Butterfly
Well, that’s all I have for this month’s birthday celebration. Only five months left! All I have to say is, “God’s will be done.” Amen
A fellow blogger, Understand546, wrote about his open mic experience (My Open Mic Experience) that happened on June 24, 2018, my 45th birthday. I just had to see what I had written on that date and here it is. Enjoy!
It’s Shaun’s World 
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