Should have known that calmness I experienced the other day was preparation before the storm.
Today…
Triggered
PTSD
No warning
Sitting here trying to clear my mind. Sitting here praying for those who were also triggered. Praying for those who thought they’d healed only to find out those feelings were still very much alive. They were just lying dormant waiting to reappear. Hmm… Do they ever totally disappear?
My heart aches for those who are still suffering. Who can’t find their way out.
No… I wasn’t a victim. Almost was, though. But I wasn’t. However, I know so many who were including my mom. I witnessed it all. My mom was a survivor.
Today is one of those days when I wish I could cancel my appointments and crawl back in bed and watch a few episodes of “Matlock”, “Perry Mason” or “Murder She Wrote.” Y’all, this rain sounds so calming. There’s no way I should be working today. I should be casually dozing off.
On another note– Boy do I miss my grands! On days like this, we would have been watching “In The Heat of the Night” or the “Price is Right” until our stories came on. We would also have the front door or the windows open so we could smell the rain. Y’all, there’s nothing like the smell of rain when it first hits the dirt! It smells sooo good. Listen,don’t judge me. I’m a country girl.☺️
Yeah… Those were the days.
Okay, enough reminiscing and wishing. Let me get back to work.
Found the quote below in my journal entry dated May 16, 2019. It’s definitely a much needed reminder that we may be surrounded by stressors; however, we do not have to be stressed.
In that entry, I mentioned that I had shared the quote the day before (May 15, 2019), but I do not remember seeing it under yesterday’s Facebook memories. Or… maybe it was there but wasn’t meant to be shared until today. Hmmm… Only God knows. Smile♥️
It’s not the things around you that causes stress but your thoughts about them that causes the stress.
Repeat after me—
“I refuse to be stressed. God has everything under control.”
All morning my mood has been pretty even. No highs. No lows. Just pretty mellow. I used to believe if I wasn’t feeling the least bit of something, whether it was anxiety or joy, then something had to be wrong. I had to be depressed and not know it.
Well, today I am feeling nothing and I’m not depressed. It’s difficult to describe, especially when you have always been a feeling/emotional person. No random thoughts. No thoughts of the past. No thoughts of the future. No thoughts of what I will be doing in the next hour or so. Nothing. It’s almost as if I am in a meditative state without actively meditating. Just sitting here writing and staring out the window admiring all of God’s glory.
It’s a very interesting space to be in without intentionally being in it.
Be sure to give people their roses while they are still here. Let them know they are loved and appreciated.
Before my mom passed, my siblings and I gave her her roses, especially during her last few months of life. During that time, we were intentional about letting her know she was so very loved and appreciated. Y’all, there was no way we were going to let her leave this world wondering. Now, don’t get me wrong, we loved on her before then, but it was nothing like those last few months. Everything was different. Maybe because she was different. It was almost as if it had finally resonated with her that she was actually loved and appreciated. Imagine going through life never truly knowing if you were loved or appreciated. Hmmm… Another topic for another day.
Well, unlike Momma, I don’t have to wonder. I know my two love me. I feel it through their actions. Not through receiving material things like physical roses or gifts, but through their affection and words of appreciation, affirmation and gratitude. Yes, I am one loved mother. Smiling
Not only am I grateful for my roses from them, but also from others. I am so grateful for those who pour into me and let me know that I am appreciated and loved. I receive, accept, and appreciate my roses.
Hmmm… Maybe that’s the key. Roses must be accepted after received. Again, another topic for another day because I haven’t always accepted my roses, either.
Anyhoo… If you are reading this, please accept your roses. Please know that you are truly appreciated and loved. Thank you so much for taking time from your day to drop in and visit my world. In Tupac’s words, you are appreciated. Sending you virtual hugs. Praying God blesses you many, many times over. Love you!♥️
When was the last time you were still long enough to hear God’s voice?
Facebook Memory: May 14, 2022
STOP Listen What do you hear?
Sometimes I find myself moving a mile a minute – busy with this, thinking about that, trying to figure things out on my own. Then, after I’m good and frustrated, I hear, “STOP. Listen.” Ha! That’s when I hear God’s voice.
Finally winding down for the night, and the song, “Ain’t No Need To Worry,” by The Winans featuring Anita Baker just came to mind. It’s the perfectsong to end the day with.
The song says—
Ain’t no need in worrying what the night is gonna bring, it’ll be all over in the morning.
In the morning, the morning, it’ll be all over in the morning.
Listen, whatever it is give it to God. Tomorrow will be a brand new day with new blessings. Now, trust God and get some rest.♥️
It’s Shaun’s World 
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