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Life

Hello Sunday

Shaun Bradford

My graduate!!

Congratulations KeShawn!

Yesterday, was my son’s big day! Today, he begins a new chapter of life. As with my daughter, I’m excited to see where this next chapter leads him, and ready to help him maneuver through his next few years of college.

About College…

Yesterday morning KeShawn surprised us with news that he had chosen a college. He applied to and was accepted at both Mississippi State University and The University of Southern Mississippi; and, for almost a year now, he’s been undecided. Which means we’ve done everything for both colleges – set up student accounts, applied for housing, scheduled orientations, etc. Then, yesterday morning my dad asked him what college he planned to go to and he said……. The University of Southern Miss. Y’all, I screamed! You see, Southern Miss is my alma mater. I really thought he was going to choose Mississippi State. I was prepared for it. Had even bought myself a t-shirt to wear to yesterday’s graduation luncheon. However, once he said Southern Miss, I went rummaging through drawers trying to find something yellow (gold) to wear since all of my Southern Miss t-shirts were faded. I ended up finding two yellow shirts that I had never worn and they both fit perfectly. Yes.. yesterday was a pretty awesome day for us both!

By the way, I didn’t cry. I was too wired and happy to cry. I just wanted him to have the best, most memorable day ever, and I believe he did.

Now on to bigger and better things.

Congratulations KeShawn!!

Life

Wednesday Writings

Shaun Bradford

Disclaimer: I have decided to publish the unedited draft of this blog. Not going to change a thing. Talk about completely random! Laughing. Y’all, I’m so fascinated by how the mind works.. how my mind works. Yes, today I’m going to let it be. So, two, 10 or even 30 years from now, I’ll smile when I re-read it. I’ll definitely cringe too. But I’ll smile and say, “That was me. This is me. I love you, Shaun.”

Hello! And Happy Wednesday!

Today is another random blog. Was reading journal entries from 1992 and decided to write about those writings.

On May 20, 1992, I wrote, “Love is so powerful and strong, but when it’s one sided, it’s not so great.” I was 18 years old. Two weeks from enlisting in the Air Force and a little over a month from my 19th birthday. And I was in love. Well.. at least I believed I was.

His name was Will. I usually don’t include names but hey, it’s been 30 years. Yes, Will was his name and I was in “love.” Looking back, what did I really know about love besides what I saw in movies and read in novels. I had to be in love because love hurts, and I was hurting. I mean, the deeper the pain, the deeper the love. Right? Boy, was I confused.

Now, here I am sitting here 30 years later wondering if I have ever been in love. Real love. Or was it that make believe kind of love. Here’s my theory, which I shared with my ex-husband when he would ask if I was in love with him. I would say, “I love you, but I’m not in love with you. Because if you fall in love with someone, you can always fall out of love with them.” Hmm.. It sounded good; however, in all honesty, I didn’t want to be in love because I only remembered the pain associated with it. I never wanted to feel that pain again.

I once read, it’s not love that hurts but the rejection and heartache we associate with love. When I think about it, I believe I have only been in love once.. maybe twice. I say this because they’re the ones I still smile about when I think of them. The ones that still make me feel all warm inside.

I believe when you fall in love with someone, you never fall out of love with them. You can relabel it as, “I care for them,” or “I love them like family,” but deep down you know there’s a difference. Sometimes things aren’t meant to be during this lifetime, or perhaps it happened during a past lifetime, but it happened and you know it because you still feel it.

Love…

Shaun