Today, I am celebrating my father, my daddy. I love this man!
These last several years have been very difficult for him. I have watched him push through two strokes, eye surgeries, hearing loss, the death of two of his siblings and the death of his only son. ALL of this has happened since 2018.
When I called him earlier, he was shaving. Not sure if he’s going to church or to his shop, probably both. In spite of everything that has happened, he keeps going. Can’t slow him down. Y’all, I love my daddy.
Happy Father’s Day, Mr. Sutton!
To all of the fathers and father figures reading this, Happy Father’s Day! Today… andevery day… belongs to you. We see you, we love you and you do matter!♥️
The countdown for the last seven days has officially begun! As I wrote this morning, I feel so blessed and loved. It’s such an indescribable, yet fascinating feeling. Almost euphoric. Even with my mom passing and life still lifing, I can feel what’s happening around me, but then again, I can’t. It’s like that saying–“Ships don’t sink because of the water that’s around them; ships sink because of the water that gets in them.” Yes, that pretty much sums it all up. All kinds of craziness is still happening around me, but none of it is touching me. Y’all, that’s God!
On another note, a couple of days ago, I watched Gabrielle Union-Wade’s documentary, “My Journey to 50.” So much of her experience during the last few days of her 40s resonated with what I am currently experiencing. Y’all, it had me all in my feelings. Although her journey took place in Africa, the spiritual part is what I mostly identified with. Just as I have been writing about these past few weeks–that extra baggage–she spoke about leaving past traumas on this side of 50. She refused to take them into the next half of her life. Again, same with me. I refuse to take any of the traumas, triggers, hurts, heartaches, disappointments, insecurities and self-sabotaging ways into the next half of my life. I absolutely refuse to!
Y’all, life is just so interesting. Never knew 50 would get here so quickly. I keep asking myself where did the time go. Instead of feeling resentful or like a failure for not achieving my goals (because I spent a lot of my 30s and 40s doing just that), I feel like I have been given another opportunity to do anything I want, a reset with no limits!
Anyhoo… I’m going to end here. I know this was pretty random. I decided to write all of this this evening since tomorrow’s Father’s Day. Didn’t want to add all of this to my Father’s Day post. Lol
According to my Facebook memories, this particular message has been a running theme for this date, June 15th, for several years now. So, I will not rock the boat or switch it up. The message–
Be still. God is working.♥️ ~Shaun
Whatever it is, take your hand off of it and give it to God. Allow Him to work!
So happy to have God in my corner. Y’all, I am truly, truly blessed.
Right now the song, “I Do Worship,” by John P. Kee is stuck in my head on repeat. The song says–
For Your goodness and Your glory For the joy inside my story I do worship You
Choose kindness, even when handling yourself. Always, always, always be kind.♥️ ~Shaun
You deserve kindness too.
So let’s talk about yesterday. Yesterday I found myself dealing with an issue I thought I had mastered– loving and accepting ALL of me.
Yesterday, I allow someone’s words, spoken with good intentions, make me feel like the weird little girl who always spoke before she thought. Yes, that was me. Whatever I thought came out, and always at the oddest moments, especially when I was excited.
Well, it still happens today. My siblings and kids are always reminding me that I sometimes say weird or unfiltered things. The crazy thing is I have absolutely no idea when I’ve said something wrong or weird until it’s pointed out. So now, I always try to think before I respond, especially when I am excited.
Let’s just say, yesterday was one of those days. I was happy and excited and I retweeted a tweet without knowing if the information was factual. Then someone saw it and asked me if I was going to delete it. Y’all, they didn’t know about the blog I had written about it or my fangirl behavior. I’m laughing now, but yesterday, I was a mess. I allowed that person’s comment to make me feel like that weird little girl again. So I unpublished the blog; however, I did not delete the tweet. It wasn’t like I was the only one who had tweeted it.
Anyhoo… yesterday I wrote another blog after I unpublished the original one and I ended it with this–
I went from being happy to feeling weird. This is definitely something I need to work through. Living a life where you feel you can’t fully express yourself isn’t really living, is it?
Less than two weeks to 50. Will I live my life out loud or continue to box myself in because the real Shaun is too much for most?
Not even two hours later I republished my original blog with the caption – “DECIDED TO LIVE!!” I realized that that weird little girl feeling I had was something I had placed on myself. I created the “weird girl” box ages ago and was about to retreat back into it. As I say so very often, I am so grateful God loves me and will not allow me to stay down. After thinking about how I allowed one comment to take me back to a place I thought I had passed, I decided I had a choice, I could keep carrying that box around or destroy it. I decided to destroy it!
I told y’all I’m dropping baggage before I head into this next half of my life. Either I’m going to embrace ALL of me or stay bound. Y’all, I am choosing ALL of me!
Ten more days! Only God knows what other baggage is still left to be released or destroyed. One thing I can say for sure is He’s bringing all of it to the forefront saying you either release it or remain where you are. So, yeah, the ball is definitely in my court.
Okay… I did not intend for this blog to be this long.
Message – Remember to be kind to yourself and embrace ALL of you!
A couple of hours ago I did something I typically don’t do – express my feelings without second guessing myself. Usually, I overthink things which lead me to not fully feel everything I’m feeling at that moment. Basically, I suppress my feelings of excitement. Been doing this since childhood because everybody can’t handle the magnitude of my excitement.
Today, I chose to be a true fan. Let ALL of my fangirl glory show. Then, someone said one little thing that made me feel like that little girl again. HA! So interesting how that happened. I went from being happy to feeling weird. This is definitely something I need to work through. Living a life where you feel you can’t fully express yourself isn’t really living, is it?
Less than two weeks to 50. Will I live my life out loud or continue to box myself in because the real Shaun is too much for most?
Crazy faith flourishes in the atmosphere of belief. – Pastor Mike Todd
Shaun’s Journal Entry, June 13, 2022
I ended the entry with a screenshot of a post I had shared earlier that year. I won’t share the screenshot, but I will share the message that was attached to it.
Ask, then believe.
Listen, ask for what you desire, then believe it will happen.♥️
What I’m feeling this morning is a mixture of gratitude, anticipation, excitement and love. Nah… I still don’t have a boo but I do feel loved. I guess you can say it’s that self-love.
Anyhoo… I had no idea yesterday was my 5th anniversary of blogging under It’s Shaun’s World. Never expected to still be blogging five years later. Y’all, I absolutely love it here! Here’s a screenshot of my first blog.
I believe I am living up to my promises. Lol
Again, I can’t believe it’s been five years. And as you can see, Year 45 was just around the corner. Now, I am preparing to celebrate Year 50!!! Yessss!!! Y’all, God is so good. Smiling
Year 50 is loading…
Well, this is all I have for you today. Wishing you a peaceful Sunday and wonderful week. Take Care!♥️
Shaun
Five years and over 1000 blogs. Today makes 757 consecutive days of blogging. Feeling proud and blessed.
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