Life

Hello Sunday

Love

As I’ve mentioned many times before, October 2019 was probably the worst month of my life. Now, here I am feeling like I’m somewhat reliving it again. I wrote the following a day or two before my brother was rushed to the ER.

Facebook Memory: October 9, 2019

So… I just read an article about Bernie Sanders’ daughter-in-law passing. She was 46 years old. For some reason this has had me bawling. I’m 46. All year long I’ve been seeing the quote “Everything happens for a reason.” It’s really got me thinking. Am I living my life to its fullest? What am I doing to make this my best life ever? Work is stressing me out. School is overwhelming. I tend to veg out on social media to get away from it all. Then that becomes overwhelming. All I keep thinking about right now is my birthday motto- #46andFree. Am I really free? Am I doing what I want to do? Am I truly happy? Am I living? Time to rethink some things. She was 46, y’all. I’m still crying. That could’ve been me. I have sooo many things I desire to do before I leave this earth. Prayers for her family. I think it’s time to log off for a while. Need to focus on my next moves. I’ll still post on Mississippi Thriving IG. I love y’all.🙏🏽♥️

That was three years ago. Never in a million years would I have guessed my brother would die ten days later.

This morning was another bad one for my mom. This time she cried for a while saying she can’t take this anymore. The irony of this whole situation is everyone’s praying for her to stay with us while she’s praying to leave. My prayer is that God’s will be done; and if that means it’s time for her to go, that everyone will be okay with it.

A few days before my brother died, everyone was praying for him to make it. When he started mumbling that he was tired and wanted to rest, they prayed even harder and kept telling him to “be strong” and “fight.” I remember thinking I just wanted him to be at peace. Y’all, I truly believed he would pull through, but he didn’t.

Momma has been preparing us for a few years now for this time. A few weeks ago she told us that she had accomplished everything she truly wanted out of life. She said that it wasn’t what everyone else dreamed of, but it was what she dreamed of.

I pray this isn’t a repeat of October 2019. I so love my momma and want what’s best for her. I know God is a healer and restorer. However, I also know that sometimes He relieves people of their pain by calling them home to be with Him.

This is all I have for this Sunday. Please keep my mom and family uplifted in your thoughts and prayers.

Shaun

Life

Facing Fears

The only way to overcome a fear is to face it head on. Avoiding it will not make it disappear.

Are there fears you’ve been reluctant to face?

I definitely have a few. I believe it’s time to become intentional about facing them. Hope you’ll do the same.♥️ ~ Shaun

Life

Wednesday Writings

Today would have been my brother’s 49th birthday. Y’all, I just knew we would grow old together. Happy heavenly birthday, Rell.♥️ October 5, 1973 – October 19, 2019

Here’s what I shared on that day three years ago (October 5, 2019) –

Facebook Memory: October 5, 2019

Second message this week about everything happens for a reason. So I must make it today’s social media find. Rest assured God’s got you. He already has everything worked out. Just trust Him. Believe me, I know it’s easier said than done, but it’s something we must learn to do. Y’all have a blessed day.🙏🏽♥️

This was in response to a post made by TV ONE – “Laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding yourself everything happens for a reason.”

That week, my emotions were all over the place. My anxiety level was like a ten. You know how you can feel something about to happen but can’t pinpoint what? I remember being so anxious that entire day, and the days that followed, were even worse. Didn’t know I would actually laugh at the confusion. Not really. Smile through the tear. Boy did I do a lot of crying, but of course I kept smiling. One thing that I couldn’t seem to do was focus on the “everything happens for a reason” part. HA! One thing I forgot to do was take my own advice and trust that God knew what He was doing. Honestly, I’m still confused about that part. Only God knows the lessons and reasons behind everything that happened.

Yeah.. October 2019 was a month I truly wanted to forget. Hands down, it was one of the worst months of my life. Y’all, I honestly didn’t think I could see another October and not feel some kind of way. I’m so thankful time takes away the sting. That God loves us enough to make sure we heal from pain.

October 5, 2019

Shaun