Saw this quote and thought I’d share it with my natural nurturers—those who can’t help but love on others and put them first.
“This year, your assignment is you. Water you.” – femalempire.co
As the quote says, we are the assignment this year and must water ourselves. Whatever we’ve poured into others in the past, we must now pour into ourselves. This doesn’t mean we’re being selfish or will love others any less. It just means we are making our purposes, dreams, and aspirations a priority so they can finally grow. It’s our time to flourish.♥️
Lately, I have been a little more emotional than usual. It took me a minute to figure out why, and I finally have. A rebirth is happening. At least, that’s what it feels like.
Some may think what I’m about to say is weird, and it’s perfectly fine, but the timing of “The Six Triple Eight” movie and my daughter’s upcoming 30th birthday are so intertwined. The 30 years hit me while I was visiting her a week ago. Then, seeing the movie this weekend brought back memories of my experiences in the military around the time of her birth (almost 30 years ago) and the first few years of her life. Y’all, I’ve been crying nonstop this weekend. It feels like I am finally releasing everything I have held in for decades—the stress, uncertainties, and pressure I placed on myself to be a great mother to a child who did not ask to be here. I chose to bring her into this world, which meant I was responsible for making sure she always felt loved, protected, supported, and never like a burden. Those were the things I needed as a child, and I was determined to make sure she had them. And then the song “The Journey” by H.E.R. gets me every time I hear it. Y’all, these past 30 years have definitely been a journey.
Here’s what AI had to say about 30 years—
“It can be a turning point in a person’s life or a time when a historical event’s long-term effects can be seen. … It can be a time when someone realizes who they are, gains self-awareness.”
Whewwww… y’all, this is a lot.
I now realize that 30 years ago, I shut down part of my life to become the best mom I could be, and I know exactly when it happened. That’s a story for another time. Last week, I finally saw the woman my baby girl has become and know that my mission has been achieved. Now it’s time for me to live.
My life definitely changed 30 years ago, and I have absolutely no regrets—I never have. I just adjusted. Seeing my baby girl’s smile today lets me know all my sacrifices were worth it.
Here are two pictures… A lot can change in a year.
Squadron Christmas party in Germany (December 1993).Squadron Christmas party in Florida (December 1994). Almost 9 months pregnant.
What a journey…
Thanks for allowing me space to exhale and release. I pray you have a glorious Sunday!♥️
Never forget YOU are God’s child—hand crafted and uniquely made—royalty. There’s no other like you. Remember who He created you to be and boldly walk in it.
I pray you have a beautiful Sunday. Again, boldly walk in who you are!
I can’t believe the end of the year is already here! I pray this month brings us more love, peace, joy, and blessings than we have received all year. May they set the precedents for 2025 and the years ahead.♥️
On November 17, 2022, I wrote the following in my journal—
“This morning while taking a shower, I could see myself standing before leaders at the UN, an image I’ve seen before. I have no idea what I’m briefing them on or who I’m representing, but I’m there. Now it’s time to be intentional about utilizing what I have and God will add more. I don’t need to know how I’ll get there, I just know that I will.”
When I write about my desire to go to the United Nations, it’s not only because it has been a dream of mine since childhood but because I often see myself there. Y’all, I actually see myself there (at least, that’s where I appear to be). It’s a vision I have had for well over 35 years or more. Over the years, there were times—sometimes years at a time—when I stopped believing in the vision because it seemed too unrealistic. However, there have been other times when the vision has seemed so real that I have taken on opportunities hoping they’d help me reach the vision faster. Well, those opportunities never worked. I wasted a lot of time and money; however, all was not lost. I did gain knowledge, experience, and a few skills I didn’t have before.
Today, I’m more mindful about the oppotunities I pursue and accept—been using more discernment and following God’s guidance. As I wrote two years ago, I don’t need to know how I’ll get there, I only need to know that I will. Right now, my job is to focus on the tasks/assignments at hand, and allow God to do the rest.
Are there dreams/visions God has given you that seem unrealistic or unattainable? If so, how are you handling them? Asking because I really want to know. Smile
I guess I’ll end here. I pray you have a wonderfully, relaxing day.♥️
Y’all, I am finally starting to socialize more, and lately it’s been with my fellow veterans. This year, I have attended at least four events, including a small social I attended last night in honor of Veterans Day. Typically, I attend one every other year. However, this year is different—maybe my age has something to do with it (Giggles). This year, I am finally fully embracing my veteran status. I realize I belong to a very special community, and it’s a community I look forward to serving, as well as serving with.
Here’s a picture of me with one of my favorite veterans and friends, Mrs. Raylawni Branch. She’s a retired Air Force nurse and a pillar in our community. I always have a great time when we’re together.
Mrs. Raylawni is a fascinating person. Fun facts, she loves to travel and she taught herself the Korean language by watching Korean movies. Beautiful being.🥰
So far, my Veterans Day weekend has been pretty good. Not sure what I’ll do today. However, tomorrow, which is Veterans Day, is when the real fun begins. People treat us so well on Veterans Day. Smiling
Are you a veteran? If so, what are your plans for tomorrow?
Mine—Breakfast at IHOP, lunch at Olive Garden or Chili’s, and I’m not sure about dinner yet.☺️
Well, that’s all for now. It’s raining good (which is why I’m posting a little late) and I am about to turn over and go back to sleep.
We may not always understand what God is doing or why He has us go through certain things. However, I have learned that, at times, He gives us glimpses of possible answers. Yesterday, I received one of those glimpses. It was a glimpse of a promise, of a dream God had given me ages ago. All He ever asked of me was to trust Him completely, be obedient, and follow His lead; and I did—not always perfectly, but did (and I’m still doing).
Yes, yesterday, I received a much-needed glimpse at what God is doing and where He’s taking me. Of course, I’m not privy to the entire picture (I’ve learned to accept this), but what I see is enough to let me know I am heading in the right direction and that my dream is still intact.
Today, I am thankful for connections I made decades ago that have somehow come full circle (one of the speakers from yesterday’s event was someone I met during undergrad over 20 years ago). Thankful for recent connections (made within the past few months) that have encouraged and inspired me to push beyond my limits. Everything that has happened has been done in a way only God knew I would undoubtedly receive—from the people He placed in my path to the opportunities I have been given. I am forever amazed at how well He knows me! I know…He’s God. Smile
Y’all, I can’t stress it enough how I really did need for yesterday to happen, and to happen the way that it did. Even what I considered hiccups, needed to happen.
I just love the way God loves me.🥰
Thank you so much for reading and following my journey to becoming the person God’s created me to be. I pray you have a wonderful Sunday and extraordinary week!♥️
This morning I’m singing, “A wonderful change has come over me.”
Last week, my week began with Tamela Mann’s song, “Change Me,” stuck in my head for two days. I wrote how I felt my spirit and soul worshiping God. Y’all, it was such a wonderful experience, something I had never experienced before.
Well, this morning I woke up singing, “A wonderful change has come o-o-ver meeeee.” Smiling
As I mentioned last week, I am not sure what God is doing in my life, but it’s something extraordinary and it’s already been very much felt.
Forever grateful.
Beyond blessed.
Thank you so much for reading. I pray you have a beautiful Sunday and a wonderful week.♥️
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