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Grateful For Second Chances

Full circle.

Singing—

“You gave me
A second chance
You forgave me
like only You can 
You gave me 
A second chance.

For You’re the God of a second chance.”


Yesterday, while I was trying to figure out what God was doing with my life—because I had not remembered asking to go the route my life seems to be going at the moment—I had one of my “aha” moments. On several occasions in my life, I missed what God was doing because I was so focused on things not going the way I planned or looking like what I envisioned. The opportunities to have what I always dreamed of were there, but I kept missing them because I was so focused on my circumstances rather than the opportunities.

For those who haven’t been following me long, as a child, I dreamed of “world peace.” President Jimmy Carter and Sally Struthers were my inspiration. In my eyes, they were both doing things to save the world, and I wanted to help.

In middle school (junior high back then), I started taking French and Spanish classes. Then, I met a group from Switzerland who was visiting our school and decided I wanted to live in Switzerland—hence the reason I’m so set on the Palais des Nations in Geneva, Switzerland. By the time I reached the 11th grade, I already knew I would be living abroad doing some kind of work to make this world better. I had a French, student teacher who had just returned from a mission in Sri Lanka. She had a nose ring and wore saris and sandals, and I thought she was one of the coolest people in the world. She told some of the best stories. Then, I had another student teacher, a UN Peace Keeper, who did mission trips around South Asia. Y’all, I just knew I would eventually be like them until I had a dream and saw myself at the UN speaking to leaders from so many nations. That’s when I decided I should go more of the corporate route and become a translator or interpreter.

Long story short, NONE of it happened!

Instead, I went to college for a semester and decided college wasn’t for me, so I joined the Air Force. Now, here’s where the opportunities came and kept coming, but I missed them because they didn’t look like what I spent my entire childhood planning for. When I was in Basic Training, I was asked if I wanted to take a foreign language test for either French or Spanish or both, and I declined. I was too afraid I wouldn’t pass them. Get this, they asked me TWICE! I declined both times. The next opportunity came when I received orders to Germany. I didn’t want to go to Germany, so I never took advantage of the opportunities I had there. Opportunities like learning the German language or traveling to France. I was stationed near the border and about a 4-5 hour drive from Paris—we even had tours going there all the time—and I didn’t go. Was waiting on my boyfriend to go with me (that’s a whole-nother story🙃). I also wanted to go to Greece and didn’t go. Y’all, I was even stationed in Turkey and didn’t go to Greece. Now, don’t get me wrong, I did travel within both countries but never did the things I said I wanted to do because I couldn’t see past what I envisioned. Talk about a word!!!

So, yesterday, while I was trying to figure out where God was going with all this (a few more things happened yesterday that had my mind spinning, too—this has been some week!), He dropped in and reminded me of those missed opportunities. He told me that even though what was happening didn’t look like what I saw, this was it! This is part of the process. If I want to get where I saw myself all those years ago, I must go through this first.

Ha! Then, this morning, I saw the Facebook memory above.

Full circle.

A second chance.

Last June, I started my term as president-elect, and on June 1st, I begin my term as president.

My life.

My journey.

I know God is with me.🙏🏽♥️

Shaun

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My Journey With God, No. 90

The message: Do Not Be Afraid

Do not be afraid, for I am with you…” Isaiah 43:5

Several posts ago, I wrote that I was singing— “Lord, whatever You’re doing in this season, don’t do it without me.” Ha! You know, when you say things like that, you open doors for God to do more in your life. And the word “more” also means “the unknown.” Scary, huh?

The scripture above is from this morning’s readings. It’s the assurance I needed to keep trucking along on this journey. I know God is with me. I have never doubted that He was. However, sometimes I need to hear from HIM (not from someone online or a sermon, but from God himself) that He is and always will be with me through this journey. I am not sure where God is leading me. Honestly, at times, I feel completely lost because nothing is going as I planned—things are just happening. But I guess when you say things like, “Have Your way, Lord,” “Your will be done,” “I’m Your vessel, do what You want to do,” and “I’m open to whatever You want to do in my life,” and the list goes on—you open yourself up to whatever God wants to do. Whew, the things I say and agree to in my conversations with God!🥴

As I smile through tears—happy and nervous tears—one thing I am certain of, and can always be sure of, is that I don’t have to fear anything because God is with me. I’m covered.♥️

Shaun

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My Journey With God, No. 88

God’s leading the way.🙏🏽

Isaiah 42:16

I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.


I am following God’s lead. I’m not sure where He’s taking me; however, I trust Him to “turn the darkness into light” and “make the rough places smooth.” I know He will be with me every step of this journey.

I trust, You, Lord.♥️

Shaun

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My Journey With God, No. 87

These last few weeks, I have been sitting in God’s presence and watching Him work—not through social media, but in my life and through the lives of those around me. Y’all, I am forever in awe of His goodness, kindness, grace, and love. I am blessed. We are blessed.♥️

Shaun

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My Journey With God, No. 86

Found the following in one of my journal entries from 2015. I wrote that it was a Facebook post I had made in 2008.

“I’m here! God made me the person I am. However, the person I am today will not be the person I am tomorrow. God is so wonderful that He allows us to grow each day. I know that in everyday ahead of me there will be learning experiences and teachable moments. Can’t say it enough, God is awesome!”


That was 17 years ago!

Today, I’m saying the same—I’m here, and God made me the person I am. And I absolutely LOVE who He created.🥰

Thank You, Lord, for loving me. You are an AMAZING God.♥️

Shaun

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My Journey With God, No. 83

This morning, I’m so very thankful and grateful I am not in the same space I was six years ago. On April 11, 2019, I reclaimed my life by sharing my fears with the world. Before then, the only ones who knew, and I feel cared, were my two hearts. When I tried to share my fears and concerns with other close family, I was told I was overreacting. That the fear was all in my head. I’ve said this many times before, when I say I’m so grateful to still be here, believe me, I’m grateful to still be here. Y’all, God is so good, merciful, and gracious. Here’s the mental and emotional space I was in six years ago.

April 11, 2019

That day, I stopped living and moving in fear. A little over a month later, my ex finally signed the divorce papers. Although I felt somewhat free, it wasn’t until a week before my 46th birthday, when the judge signed my papers, that I knew I was actually free.

When someone tells you they are afraid, believe them. I don’t care how nice or good you may believe someone to be, believe the person who is afraid. They’re not overreacting. My ex did not want to let me go. We had been separated and going through the divorce process for over four years and he was still texting me saying I would always be his wife (kept the communication open because my son was still a minor). It was a very scary situation to be in. Again, I am so grateful I am still here. I’m so grateful I’ve been able to watch my babies become thriving adults. Y’all, I do not take my life for granted at all.

I’m still here!

Beyond Blessed♥️

Shaun