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Life

The Truth Shall Set You Free

Shaun Bradford

I don’t even know where to begin. What happens when what you thought happened and what really happened, aren’t the same?

Been reading journal entries from 1992. Many entries were significant. However, this particular entry – written a few weeks before I left for basic training – hit me like a ton of bricks! Y’all, for almost 30 years I have been retelling this one particular story all wrong, very wrong. Well… maybe I have or maybe not. You decide. I do know that the way I remembered what happened has significantly influenced my life and decisions I have made over the years.

Here is how I have been telling it. How I remembered.

“Blue Eyes (y’all know I don’t use names) and I were sitting in the stairwell when I told him I had joined the Air Force. I could see he was disappointed. The words he said next have haunted me for years – ‘You’re just going to end up pregnant and alone.’ And he was right. I ended up pregnant and alone.”

Well… here is what I wrote on May 4, 1992.

“Blue Eyes said that I’ll probably end up married before I come back.”

Hmmm….. not pregnant and alone. Nothing about me getting pregnant or being alone. Did I really make it all up? Or at the time that I wrote the entry, was it not that significant? Could it be that I did not remember the rest of our conversation until I found out I was pregnant?

Well, for almost 30 years I felt like trash whenever I retold that story. I felt like he thought I was not worthy of love or marriage. As if I was destined to be alone. Did I project this on myself based off of something I thought I remembered? Why did I not remember the married part? Had I gotten married instead of pregnant, would I have remembered?

Sadly, I allowed one story, remembered incorrectly or partially, to control my life. Yes, it has actually controlled my life. It has controlled how I have perceived my worthiness. For years I have always seen myself as a single mother. Of course I eventually got married, but in my mind I was still a single mom. What is even more crazy is, I got married because I wanted to prove my worthiness. That I was worth more than being “pregnant and alone.” You know, sometimes it’s not the big things that happen to us that bothers us the most but the tiniest. Y’all, what I thought I remembered hurt me to my core.

Honestly, I really do believe he said it because I remember the pain from that conversation. It was not a good feeling. And to think that was the last conversation we ever had.

Today, I am releasing all of the remnants from that conversation. How I perceive myself today, and my worthiness, is not based on some conversation in a stairwell almost 30 years ago. From here on out I will no longer view myself as a single mom but as someone who is single with two beautiful children who is worthy of love and marriage.

Resetting my life. Feeling free!

Listen, you better get you a journal.

Shaun

Life

Wednesday Writings

Shaun Bradford

Hey y’all! I almost forgot that today is Wednesday.

Everything is good here. This week has been pretty busy. Which is a good thing. Today’s blog will be very brief.

Here is an excerpt from a journal entry written on September 15, 2017:

I am a conqueror. I was placed here for a reason. Everything I’ve been through, and the dreams I’ve had, are preparing me for something greater.

Remember, you too are a conqueror and was placed here for a reason. SHINE!

Shaun

Life

September 14, 2015

Shaun Bradford

Found a prayer I had written in my journal six years ago. Thought I’d share.

Have a blessed day!

Shaun

Life

Hello Sunday

Shaun Bradford

Today is the 16th anniversary of Hurricane Katrina, and Hurricane Ida is due to make landfall in a few hours. August 29, 2005. August 29, 2021.

Katrina was a Category 3. Ida is already a Category 4, nearing a Category 5.

So what am I going to do? Stay put. There is really no where to go. Most of MS is in its path. And if it’s anything like Katrina, it is going to eventually work its way up the East coast. All I can do is pray damage and casualties are minimal. Fortunately, I live far enough from the coast not to experience the storm surge, but not far enough from strong winds, heavy rain, flooding and possible tornadoes. Mentally, I am not prepared to deal with what is predicted to come. Trying to enjoy every moment of peace and calm, before the storm.

Katrina… Katrina was devastating. During Katrina, our power was out for several days. That was the most discomfort we experienced. However, so many lost so much more to include family members. For years… yes, years… we were reminded of the devastation – twisted trees, blue-tarped roofs, and dilapidated houses. And that was just here in Hattiesburg, which is more than a hundred miles from where Katrina made landfall. And the Gulf Coast… from Pascagula to New Orleans, the damage was surreal. Communities were literally gone. GONE! Now here we go again.

Y’all, I’m not ready. Not at all. Praying for God’s mercy, grace and protection.

Shaun

Life

Facebook Memory: August 27, 2019 – Success

Shaun Bradford

Here is a Facebook post I shared on August 27, 2019. Y’all, I actually took the leap and ventured out on my own. I am no where near where I know I will be some day, however, I am on my way! #NotGivingUp

August 27, 2019

Here’s today’s social media find. DO NOT GIVE UP! Success does not happen overnight. We refer to some as “overnight” successes; but in reality, they’ve been working on their craft for a while. Think about social media celebrities. Most of us saw them when they first started making videos. They didn’t give up. They practiced their craft until it was so good that others wanted to share it.

If you have an idea or vision that’s been nagging you for years, do it. Maybe all of the pieces aren’t in place, and you feel like making a move is pointless. Believe me, it’s not! Do something. Work towards it. Just don’t sit idle and one day wish you would have tried. The road to success will not be easy. DON’T GIVE UP! (This isn’t just for you, it’s for me too!☺️)

Y’all, I just love how I write things for my future self. Two years ago, I was not prepared for where I am today, nor am I prepared for where I will be. But as I said before, I am not giving up. Go Shaun/LaShaundreaB!!

Shaun

Life

Wednesday Writings

Shaun Bradford

A few years ago, a question was circulating on different social media platforms – “What advice would you give your five year old self?” The answer I gave then, is still the same today; however, I would add:

Be patient with yourself.
Allow yourself to make and learn from mistakes.
Take more leaps of faith.
Save more.
Invest more.
There’s going to be this thing called social media. Learn to manage it, don’t let it manage you.

Here’s what I originally shared back in 2017 (I believe).

What would I tell my 5 year old self?

You’re going to have some good days and some bad days. Sometimes you’re going to feel like giving up, but you won’t. You’re a survivor. See every moment as an adventure. It will help you through the tough times. Don’t be afraid to take chances. Don’t settle for less than what you want and what you’re worth.

You will always be a little different than others. You’re unique. Embrace it! Travel. Love. Have fun. And ALWAYS put God first. He’s so awesome. The things He’s going to allow you to experience are going to blow your mind. Girl, just enjoy life. And guess what? I love you.

What advice would you give your five year old self?

Shaun