Life

Wednesday Writings

Not my will, but God’s.

Below is a Facebook memory from three years ago. Today, I needed this reminder. Everything I do is to support God’s purpose. It’s not about me.

Facebook Memory September 14, 2019:

Have you ever asked God why He chose you? I have. Sometimes I still do. Y’all, we were chosen for a reason. He chose us, with all of our imperfections, to fulfill whatever purpose He has. He’s so awesome!

I don’t know what lies ahead, but I do know I was chosen for a reason. For this, I’m forever grateful.

To this day, I still don’t know what lies ahead. So much has happened since I made that post. I didn’t know I would suffer one of the biggest heartbreaks of a lifetime. I didn’t know that I would be a coauthor in a book. I didn’t know that I would finally take the leap and leave my job– without a backup plan. I didn’t know that I would be one of the primary caregivers for all three of my parents. I didn’t know that by resting in God, and truly allowing Him to lead, that I would experience such peace. Y’all, I actually feel like a Queen at times. Smiling. I haven’t had to want for anything. God is sooo good.

Today, I’m still perplexed about why God chose me. Why He entrusted me with so many responsibilities, while treating me like royalty. I pray that I’m making Him proud. I pray that I’m doing a good job fulfilling His purpose.

Shaun

Life

Hello Sunday

It’s almost 4:00 AM and my mom is finally aware of the date and time (still kind of off about the time of day even though it’s dark outside). She knows that certain bills have to be paid by a certain date. I told her we would worry about those things on Monday. That I would handle it all.

Yeah.. it’s almost 4:00 AM and now I’m trying not to worry about everything I have to do on Monday, or tomorrow. Shoot.. I barely remembered to pay my own bills that weren’t automatically drafted. Life. Gotta love it.

Right now, she’s falling back to sleep. I believe I’ll do the same. Tomorrow, I’ll handle whatever needs to be done then. However, today.. right now.. I’m going to stay present, get some sleep and deal with whatever Sunday brings.

Staying present.

One task and day at a time.

Going back to sleep.

Y’all have a blessed day.

Shaun

Life

Blessings & Responsibilities

Every blessing comes with a certain amount of responsibility. Often, it’s a responsibility we never anticipated or something we have tried avoiding, yet it happens anyway.

Right after I resigned, my dad became sick again. My last day of work was April 1st and a week later, what was supposed to be a two day trip turned into a three week stay. Just like now, I had so many things planned for my new venture. Looking back, everything still happened but not as I had planned or within my timeframe.

Here I am again attempting to launch this newest project and all I’m hearing is be still and go with the flow. Right here, right now, is where I’m meant to be. It’s where I’m needed.

This morning it dawned on me that besides responsibility, there’s a lesson attached to my blessing. I’m blessed to have time to spend with all three of my parents. Although it’s not under great conditions, it’s an opportunity most people don’t get with their parents due to other obligations. At this time, the projects I’m currently working on are my own (which I can modify and/or postpone), and my children are living their own lives. So, I’m going to relax and go with the flow of things. God has always provided and will continue to do so. I’m blessed.♥️ ~ Shaun