Life

UGH!

Shaun Bradford

Why does this feel like déjà vu? One part of me is celebrating success while the other is grieving a loss. No one has passed. My mom is still here but she’s not the same.

What is it with successes and griefs always happening at the same time. For real.. It’s almost like I can’t have one without the other. Like they’re meant to happen simultaneously and it’s my job to figure out how to cope with them both without losing it. Is this a test? What is it preparing me for?

I’m celebrating when I want to scream, and screaming on the inside when all I want to do is celebrate. Y’all, this really is the story of my life. So what do I do? What am I supposed to do? Do I do both? Maybe that’s it! Maybe I’m supposed to scream and get it all out, then celebrate, or vice versa.

Oh how I wish it were that easy. Perhaps, I’m just supposed to inhale, exhale, then turn everything over to God. I know it sounds crazy, but I’m tired of my emotions being all over the place.

For real.. who knew this would happen to me again? My life…

Lord, I’m going to inhale, then exhale, and rest in You. I’m going to celebrate when I feel like doing so, and scream whenever I feel like screaming. Yep… I believe that’s the plan.

I’m home for a couple of hours before I head back to the hospital. My mom is doing much better. Now it’s time to make short term and long term care decisions. Y’all, there’s so much paperwork involved. UGH!!!

Y’all know how I do. Just needed to rambling randomly. Had to get it out.

Shaun

Life

Just Be YOU

Shaun Bradford

Your authenticity is beautiful. Just be you!♥️ ~ Shaun

Life

Hello Sunday

Shaun Bradford

It’s almost 4:00 AM and my mom is finally aware of the date and time (still kind of off about the time of day even though it’s dark outside). She knows that certain bills have to be paid by a certain date. I told her we would worry about those things on Monday. That I would handle it all.

Yeah.. it’s almost 4:00 AM and now I’m trying not to worry about everything I have to do on Monday, or tomorrow. Shoot.. I barely remembered to pay my own bills that weren’t automatically drafted. Life. Gotta love it.

Right now, she’s falling back to sleep. I believe I’ll do the same. Tomorrow, I’ll handle whatever needs to be done then. However, today.. right now.. I’m going to stay present, get some sleep and deal with whatever Sunday brings.

Staying present.

One task and day at a time.

Going back to sleep.

Y’all have a blessed day.

Shaun

Life

Second Chances

Shaun Bradford

Thankful for second chances.🙏🏽♥️ ~Shaun

Life

Grateful

Shaun Bradford

What a difference a day makes. Yesterday and last night, things were really rough. My mom was in so much pain and nothing helped. Around 4:00 AM the pain medicine finally kicked in and she was finally able to fall asleep. When she woke up around 8:00 AM, she was all smiles– the pain had subsided. By mid-afternoon, she had regained some of her hearing in her right ear. Not sure if I even mentioned this in previous blogs, but my mom had lost her hearing in both ears between waking up in ICU and making it to her hospital room. Y’all, when I tell you God is sooo good!

Sitting here eating and happened to look out the window. I know it’s God’s way of letting me know everything is going to be alright. Amen

Just For Me
Life

Waves

Shaun Bradford

Life happens in waves. Ups and downs. Ins and Outs. Joys and sorrows. Breathe.

No matter where the waves take you, know that God has you in His arms. He will never abandon or leave you. Again.. Breathe.

Life

Wednesday Writings

Shaun Bradford

Gratitude.

Grateful for the connections I’ve made over my lifetime. Some connections have been brief, while others have been lifelong. The older I become, the more I cherish these connections and the time I get to spend with everyone.

Today, the world lost a wonderful man. He was a father, grandfather, brother, uncle, husband and friend. He was loud, opinionated, always cracking jokes and loved by so many. He will be missed. RIP Daddy E.

Today is also my sister’s 48th birthday. Wish I could be with her.

Yes, y’all. Life and time passes by so fast. Cherish the time you have with others, especially the ones you consider dear.

Shaun

Life

The Power of Discernment

Shaun Bradford

Discernment– the ability to judge well: the quality of being able to grasp and comprehend what is obscure.

God has given each of us the ability to discern whether or not something is in our best interest. If it’s not, let it go. If it is, embrace it. Discernment is one of our superpowers. Be sure to use it.♥️ ~ Shaun

Life

Blessings & Responsibilities

Shaun Bradford

Every blessing comes with a certain amount of responsibility. Often, it’s a responsibility we never anticipated or something we have tried avoiding, yet it happens anyway.

Right after I resigned, my dad became sick again. My last day of work was April 1st and a week later, what was supposed to be a two day trip turned into a three week stay. Just like now, I had so many things planned for my new venture. Looking back, everything still happened but not as I had planned or within my timeframe.

Here I am again attempting to launch this newest project and all I’m hearing is be still and go with the flow. Right here, right now, is where I’m meant to be. It’s where I’m needed.

This morning it dawned on me that besides responsibility, there’s a lesson attached to my blessing. I’m blessed to have time to spend with all three of my parents. Although it’s not under great conditions, it’s an opportunity most people don’t get with their parents due to other obligations. At this time, the projects I’m currently working on are my own (which I can modify and/or postpone), and my children are living their own lives. So, I’m going to relax and go with the flow of things. God has always provided and will continue to do so. I’m blessed.♥️ ~ Shaun