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hope

Just Look Up

Shaun Bradford

Singing—

“Just look up. Tomorrow’s sun will let you know your life’s not done. Just look around. Love’s pouring down. Trust in God.”

Those are a few lines from The Winans’ song, “Trust In God.”

This morning, I’m keeping my prayers going. Praying those experiencing grief, sadness, or anger due to their loss don’t lose their trust and faith in God. Let God send a sign of hope their way, even if it’s just a glimpse.🙏🏽

“Trust In God” by The Winans

According to the song, God bottles up our every tear and understands our every fear, meaning we matter. Despite what things may look and feel like, God cares and loves us, and He’ll never leave us.

Let’s continue to trust Him.♥️

Love you,

Shaun

hope

The Beginning Of Something New

Shaun Bradford

Good Morning!☀️

This particular Facebook memory from a year ago marked the beginning of something new. I was finally fully releasing the old—everything on the other side of 50—and welcoming the new. It was my Jubilee year and I was adamant about things on this side of 50 being different, being new.

Facebook Memory: September 17, 2023

I believe! Do you?!🌟
I love watching God work. He’s so amazing!♥️

I had created a short clip with the two images. This was the first new look on this side of 50—so vibrant and new!

As I mentioned, it was my Jubilee (50th) year. Not only did I want things to be different and new, I needed them to be. I had lost my mom a little over a month before my birthday (she passed that May, a few days before Mother’s Day), and life was kind of weird. That’s the only way I can explain it. Not only was I celebrating my 50th birthday year, but I was also mourning the loss of my mom while attempting to celebrate life. What a time that was! I tried to make it as exciting as I could. However, as I said throughout that year, it wasn’t the year I had imagined or expected, but it was definitely the year I needed. Yeah… I needed it. I can’t say it enough, I’m beyond blessed.🙏🏽

Well, that’s all I have for now. Wishing you an amazing day!♥️

Love you,

Shaun

Life

Wednesday Writings

Shaun Bradford

Gratitude.

Grateful for the connections I’ve made over my lifetime. Some connections have been brief, while others have been lifelong. The older I become, the more I cherish these connections and the time I get to spend with everyone.

Today, the world lost a wonderful man. He was a father, grandfather, brother, uncle, husband and friend. He was loud, opinionated, always cracking jokes and loved by so many. He will be missed. RIP Daddy E.

Today is also my sister’s 48th birthday. Wish I could be with her.

Yes, y’all. Life and time passes by so fast. Cherish the time you have with others, especially the ones you consider dear.

Shaun

Life

Wednesday Writings

Shaun Bradford

Facebook memory: September 8, 2018 – Caption and picture.

How many of you have tried to rush things and God said, “Be still” or “Be patient”?

Be Still
Be Patient
God’s Working

I’m not going to lie, I have been feeling pretty low for a few days now. Can’t seem to stop crying. I keep asking myself where is my life headed. Honestly, it seems like my ambitions and dreams have shriveled up. All I’m left with is nothingness. Like, I feel nothing. I want nothing. I’m just here.

Yesterday, my son said I needed to get out the house and go somewhere, anywhere. I was like, all I’ve been doing is going. He said I needed to go somewhere for myself, not to take care of things for someone else. So, we drove down to the coast for lunch. He was right, I needed to do something for me. Now, here I am laying here with my thoughts. I just can’t seem to stop crying. I’ve been patient with myself for years, so why am I not further along? I don’t want to die without achieving my dreams; however, right now, I don’t have any drive to move forward. None. I just want to be.

I know this moment will pass. It always does. But it’s becoming harder and harder to bounce back. This is hard to admit but I’m beginning to feel hopeless. Just being transparent.

Shaun

Life

Wednesday Writings

Shaun Bradford
Love

Two years ago I shared a post with the caption, “Love.” That was it. One word. Love.

The definition of love is an intense feeling of deep affection.

That year I experienced a whirlwind of emotions. Too many highs and lows to name. Honestly, I am not sure why I shared the word, Love. Wish I could remember what I was thinking when I shared it. I’m pretty sure I was on some emotional high. I was probably feeling good. Feeling all loved and felt like spreading love.

Ha! Little did I know, two months later, I would need that love I was spreading so freely. I had no idea my life was about to change, but I could feel it. Something in the atmosphere felt weird. My emotions were all over the place. Little did I know, when I wished my brother a happy birthday on October 5, 2019, I was about to experience the blow of a lifetime. A few days after his birthday he was admitted to ICU.

Love.

I do not believe you truly understand love until you have lost someone you truly loved.

Love,

Shaun

Life

Death

Shaun Bradford

Death.

Seems like the older I become the more death seems to bother me. I’m not saying I wasn’t bothered by it before, but it was just different. When I was younger I believed I would live forever. Now that I’m almost 50, I see things differently. I often feel like I’m in a race against time. Will I achieve my goals before death takes me away from here? I try not to think about death, but it’s hard not to. A week ago, one of my mom’s long-time friends passed. Two weeks before that, a couple my family used to attend church with, died within days of each other. Their son and I were classmates. Then, two days before Ms. Cicely Tyson passed, one of my friends texted me that her dad had just passed unexpectedly. It’s like death is lurking everywhere. Honestly, it’s becoming a little too much.

Y’all, I have so many questions that only God can answer. Am I in a race against death? Will I die before I achieve my goals? Will I live to see my dreams come to fruition? What is God’s definition of “fulfilling your purpose”? Because I believe we could possibly have two completely different definitions. Sometimes I feel like I should stop pursuing my dreams, goals, and purpose, and just settle where I am. You know, just be content with what is. I mean, it would be less stressful. Less time consuming. Less heartbreaking. Less complicated. So why do I want more? Why do I continue to live as if I have 50+ years ahead of me? Why am I still moving forward as if I can have anything imaginable? Why?

Life.

My life.

Shaun