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Hello Sunday

Hey Y’all! This is like day 30 something that I’ve been blogging from this oh so comfy hospital futon. Gotta love it!

I keep telling myself I’m built for this. That God will never put more on me than I can bear. Sometimes I believe it, then other times I’m not so sure.

I always say I love watching God work – referring to the great things that I see Him doing in other’s lives. However, with that said, I also know that they’re human and can’t possibly be exempt from difficult times. I refuse to believe that they’re that special because I KNOW God loves me! Therefore, I’m considering this one of those difficult moments that I have endure before I get to greatness. Yes.. greatness! My God doesn’t play small. He always plays BIG. Smiling

Side note: When I speak about greatness, I’m not referring to notoriety, but my own personal feeling of achievement. Right now, it seems like I have eons to go. However, I must remember that God’s blessings will always make up for whatever time I feel I have lost.

Okay y’all, I’m going back to sleep. It’s early. I’m only awake because my mom keeps calling me to change the channel and asking when are they bringing breakfast. Y’all, she doesn’t want my peanut butter crackers. Said that’s for healthy folks. And she can’t see or hear the tv to know what’s on, but I keep turning it anyway. Funny and fun times from this hospital room. Can’t help but laugh. This too will pass.

Praying you have a lovely Sunday!

Shaun

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Another Random Rambling

Haven’t rambled in a while…

Last night was the first time in a while that I watched The Potter’s House Wednesday Night Bible Study, live. Usually, I catch it a day or so later. Last night’s message was Torn Between the Two. Bishop T. D. Jakes referenced putting new wine in old wineskins. (Mark 2:22) Basically, holding on to something old, while God is trying to do something new; attempting to mix the two (new with old) for fear of losing the old. In other words, losing what had already been established.

Last night, I knew the message was for me; however, I didn’t fully accept it. Didn’t want to accept it. Shoot.. haven’t wanted to accept it. Believe me, this message isn’t new. God’s been telling me this for some time now. I’m not going to lie, part of me still wanted to hold on to that old skin. I was like, I hear you God, but that’s a lot to just let go. Ha! Years of sweat equity (smiling).

However, this morning when I woke up, my first thought was, “I cannot put new wine in old skins. New skins for new wine.” This morning I got the message. What was had taken me as far as it could. Its capacity to expand had reached its limit. Not throwing it away. As Bishop mentioned last night, that old skin was once new. If you know me, you already know I never throw away memorabilia. I hold on to it forever. It’s part of my heart.

With that said, I can no longer grieve what was and must build on what God is doing. Which is something new. Something that’s way more powerful than before. And if I continue to hold on to the old, I’ll never know where this new thing will take me.

Smiling

God, I’m ready to build on the new. New wine. New skins. I’m trusting You to lead me and take me to heights unimaginable. Let’s go!!!♥️

LaShaundrea

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Wednesday Writings

Today.

Tonight.

This morning.

Has to be the hardest night/day yet.

They say things get worse before they get better.

When will better come? Not for me, but for her.

Praying…

Shaun

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Rejoice, God is Working

Knowing that God is always working on our behalf and that He never stops loving us, makes me rejoice.♥️ ~ Shaun

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Wednesday Writings

Not my will, but God’s.

Below is a Facebook memory from three years ago. Today, I needed this reminder. Everything I do is to support God’s purpose. It’s not about me.

Facebook Memory September 14, 2019:

Have you ever asked God why He chose you? I have. Sometimes I still do. Y’all, we were chosen for a reason. He chose us, with all of our imperfections, to fulfill whatever purpose He has. He’s so awesome!

I don’t know what lies ahead, but I do know I was chosen for a reason. For this, I’m forever grateful.

To this day, I still don’t know what lies ahead. So much has happened since I made that post. I didn’t know I would suffer one of the biggest heartbreaks of a lifetime. I didn’t know that I would be a coauthor in a book. I didn’t know that I would finally take the leap and leave my job– without a backup plan. I didn’t know that I would be one of the primary caregivers for all three of my parents. I didn’t know that by resting in God, and truly allowing Him to lead, that I would experience such peace. Y’all, I actually feel like a Queen at times. Smiling. I haven’t had to want for anything. God is sooo good.

Today, I’m still perplexed about why God chose me. Why He entrusted me with so many responsibilities, while treating me like royalty. I pray that I’m making Him proud. I pray that I’m doing a good job fulfilling His purpose.

Shaun

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Just Be YOU

Your authenticity is beautiful. Just be you!♥️ ~ Shaun

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Hello Sunday

It’s almost 4:00 AM and my mom is finally aware of the date and time (still kind of off about the time of day even though it’s dark outside). She knows that certain bills have to be paid by a certain date. I told her we would worry about those things on Monday. That I would handle it all.

Yeah.. it’s almost 4:00 AM and now I’m trying not to worry about everything I have to do on Monday, or tomorrow. Shoot.. I barely remembered to pay my own bills that weren’t automatically drafted. Life. Gotta love it.

Right now, she’s falling back to sleep. I believe I’ll do the same. Tomorrow, I’ll handle whatever needs to be done then. However, today.. right now.. I’m going to stay present, get some sleep and deal with whatever Sunday brings.

Staying present.

One task and day at a time.

Going back to sleep.

Y’all have a blessed day.

Shaun

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Second Chances

Thankful for second chances.🙏🏽♥️ ~Shaun

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Waves

Life happens in waves. Ups and downs. Ins and Outs. Joys and sorrows. Breathe.

No matter where the waves take you, know that God has you in His arms. He will never abandon or leave you. Again.. Breathe.

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Blessings & Responsibilities

Every blessing comes with a certain amount of responsibility. Often, it’s a responsibility we never anticipated or something we have tried avoiding, yet it happens anyway.

Right after I resigned, my dad became sick again. My last day of work was April 1st and a week later, what was supposed to be a two day trip turned into a three week stay. Just like now, I had so many things planned for my new venture. Looking back, everything still happened but not as I had planned or within my timeframe.

Here I am again attempting to launch this newest project and all I’m hearing is be still and go with the flow. Right here, right now, is where I’m meant to be. It’s where I’m needed.

This morning it dawned on me that besides responsibility, there’s a lesson attached to my blessing. I’m blessed to have time to spend with all three of my parents. Although it’s not under great conditions, it’s an opportunity most people don’t get with their parents due to other obligations. At this time, the projects I’m currently working on are my own (which I can modify and/or postpone), and my children are living their own lives. So, I’m going to relax and go with the flow of things. God has always provided and will continue to do so. I’m blessed.♥️ ~ Shaun