Life

Wednesday Writings

Not my will, but God’s.

Below is a Facebook memory from three years ago. Today, I needed this reminder. Everything I do is to support God’s purpose. It’s not about me.

Facebook Memory September 14, 2019:

Have you ever asked God why He chose you? I have. Sometimes I still do. Y’all, we were chosen for a reason. He chose us, with all of our imperfections, to fulfill whatever purpose He has. He’s so awesome!

I don’t know what lies ahead, but I do know I was chosen for a reason. For this, I’m forever grateful.

To this day, I still don’t know what lies ahead. So much has happened since I made that post. I didn’t know I would suffer one of the biggest heartbreaks of a lifetime. I didn’t know that I would be a coauthor in a book. I didn’t know that I would finally take the leap and leave my job– without a backup plan. I didn’t know that I would be one of the primary caregivers for all three of my parents. I didn’t know that by resting in God, and truly allowing Him to lead, that I would experience such peace. Y’all, I actually feel like a Queen at times. Smiling. I haven’t had to want for anything. God is sooo good.

Today, I’m still perplexed about why God chose me. Why He entrusted me with so many responsibilities, while treating me like royalty. I pray that I’m making Him proud. I pray that I’m doing a good job fulfilling His purpose.

Shaun

Life

Just Be YOU

Your authenticity is beautiful. Just be you!♥️ ~ Shaun

Life

Hello Sunday

It’s almost 4:00 AM and my mom is finally aware of the date and time (still kind of off about the time of day even though it’s dark outside). She knows that certain bills have to be paid by a certain date. I told her we would worry about those things on Monday. That I would handle it all.

Yeah.. it’s almost 4:00 AM and now I’m trying not to worry about everything I have to do on Monday, or tomorrow. Shoot.. I barely remembered to pay my own bills that weren’t automatically drafted. Life. Gotta love it.

Right now, she’s falling back to sleep. I believe I’ll do the same. Tomorrow, I’ll handle whatever needs to be done then. However, today.. right now.. I’m going to stay present, get some sleep and deal with whatever Sunday brings.

Staying present.

One task and day at a time.

Going back to sleep.

Y’all have a blessed day.

Shaun

Life

Second Chances

Thankful for second chances.🙏🏽♥️ ~Shaun

Life

Waves

Life happens in waves. Ups and downs. Ins and Outs. Joys and sorrows. Breathe.

No matter where the waves take you, know that God has you in His arms. He will never abandon or leave you. Again.. Breathe.

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Blessings & Responsibilities

Every blessing comes with a certain amount of responsibility. Often, it’s a responsibility we never anticipated or something we have tried avoiding, yet it happens anyway.

Right after I resigned, my dad became sick again. My last day of work was April 1st and a week later, what was supposed to be a two day trip turned into a three week stay. Just like now, I had so many things planned for my new venture. Looking back, everything still happened but not as I had planned or within my timeframe.

Here I am again attempting to launch this newest project and all I’m hearing is be still and go with the flow. Right here, right now, is where I’m meant to be. It’s where I’m needed.

This morning it dawned on me that besides responsibility, there’s a lesson attached to my blessing. I’m blessed to have time to spend with all three of my parents. Although it’s not under great conditions, it’s an opportunity most people don’t get with their parents due to other obligations. At this time, the projects I’m currently working on are my own (which I can modify and/or postpone), and my children are living their own lives. So, I’m going to relax and go with the flow of things. God has always provided and will continue to do so. I’m blessed.♥️ ~ Shaun

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The Flow

Life happens, right? And some things are just completely beyond our control. I would say this past week has taught me the meaning of, “Just go with the flow.” However, it’s one lesson I’ve been learning over the past year and a half.

Last night I finally stop resisting it, even the slightest bit. Last night I changed my prayer from, “Lord, I’m tired. Please help me make it.” to “Lord, I know you will not put more on me than I can bear. Please help me handle things from a place of peace.”

Today, I’m going with the flow from a place of peace. Projects that need to get done will be done when I get to them. Deadlines will have to be pushed back, and I’m okay with that. I know that where I am at this moment is where I need to be. God’s got me. Everything will always work out according to God’s plan, which will always be in my favor. ♥️

Shaun

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Love

Love – A four letter word that causes so many mixed emotions.

Love – Patient, kind and understanding.

Love – Complicated.

Love – The heart beats and longs for it.

Love – Can’t live without it.

Shaun ♥️

My Heartbeat. ♥️
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Love, Wisdom & Understanding

My goal for this week.. and always.. but more so this week – Seek love, wisdom and understanding.

When it’s hardest to love, love anyway.

Be wise about choice of words and actions. The goal should always be to build not destroy, even when situations seem hopeless.

Seek to understand before passing judgment.

These are my goals. What are some of yours?♥️ ~ Shaun

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Hello Sunday

Asking for prayers.

This morning, I can say that I’m feeling much better physically than I was yesterday. However, mentally and emotionally, I’m about the same. So, here’s some of what’s going on.

Early yesterday morning, my mom was taken to the ER for being unresponsive. My brother, who lives with her, couldn’t wake her up or feel a pulse. Long story short- She’s now in ICU.

She’s still with us but remains unresponsive. She’s also on a ventilator and sedated. Everyone on her medical team keeps stressing that she’s, “very, very sick.” “Your mother is very, very sick.” Of course they told us what was wrong; however, it’s the way they’re all stressing the severity of what’s happening is what has made this ER visit and ICU stay different from the others.

For those who don’t know, my mom has paraplegia. She hasn’t been able to feel anything from her waist down since 1998. Well, over the years, she’s developed many more complications, and these last four years (2018 – now) have been the worse. She has had so many ER visits and hospital stays since then. Fortunately, things calmed down a bit during the height of the COVID pandemic. She did become very ill a few times but the doctors treated her at home.

Now, here we are. Unlike times before when I only contacted immediate family, or a few of her siblings, this time I have contacted her friends and extended family. As I said before, this time feels different.

My prayers have been whatever’s in God’s will, let it be; and let us, her children, be prepared to handle whatever comes – good or bad. Even though my mom is paralyzed, she’s always been independent and strong willed. So some of the decisions we may have to make are going to be very difficult.

At this moment I’m just praying she’s at peace and not in any pain. One of her biggest fears is being in a predicament like this and not being able to tell anyone she’s in pain or uncomfortable. So I’m praying that she’s completely comfortable. Also, praying that we get to see her smile and hear her laugh again, soon.

We love you, Momma.🙏🏽♥️

Please keep our mom and family in your thoughts and prayers. Thank you.

Shaun