After reading a few journal entries, I’ve discovered the drive behind my faith– optimism. High optimism. Basically, my faith is the strongest when my head is in the clouds. When I believe the impossible is possible. And guess what? That’s exactly when the impossible actually happens. Y’all, when I’m on an optimistic high, the earth moves!
For the past few years – since October 2019 – I haven’t cared for October. But looking back, October used to be my month. It’s the month that I usually attend our national dietetics conference – FNCE. I always looked forward to attending them because they seemed to boost my drive to do more and be more. Y’all, I really feed of off energy. And right now, I feel depleted. Honestly, I feel like the Little Engine That Could. I keep saying, “I think I can. I think I can,” but can’t. Honestly, my adrenaline is gone and I’m running off of vapors. Praying, praying, praying that I find another source of energy.
Wow! Just writing this has been eye opening. I’ve actually been feeding off of their energy… Okay, so how do I produce my own? Asking God
Anyhoo.. me and my “Aha” moments. At least this is a start. Thanks for reading Part 2 of Wednesday Writings.♥️
It’s a little after 3:00 AM and since I’m up, I’ll write. I have so much on my mind. Isn’t it interesting how no matter how much you try to clear your thoughts, even through meditation, when you’re finished, everything comes rushing back. No matter how many inspirational videos I watch, messages I hear or pep talks I get, there’s always one or two things always nagging me. After writing that last sentence I heard, “Where is your faith?”. Interesting…
It’s interesting because there have been times in my life where my faith was so high that nothing around me bothered me. Then there have been times, like now, when my faith has been exhausted. Exhausted…
Y’all, I really need to get away. I’m not used to being so still. One thing I miss about life before COVID, is being able to travel freely and interacting with people. I’m not going to lie, the pandemic did a number on me and I have yet to recover. It’s like I don’t know how to jump back into the game.
Last night I was talking to a friend and she told me about odd jobs she’s taken on just to do something different outside of her full-time job. While we were talking, I considered doing the same. Then when I got off the phone, I was like, I love the flexibility of my life. I can’t even see myself tied to an 8-5 or any kind of rigid schedule. I like creating my own schedule. Funny thing is, when I did work 8-5, I created my own schedule. Had been for years. Outside of scheduled meetings, I was free to operate as I pleased. Looking back, I was pretty spoiled. Now, I can’t even imagine myself working like that again. (Shaking My Head)
Yeah.. times are weird. I thought I would have Nutrition with LaShaundreaB fully launched by now, but life happened. And every time I think about “life” happening, I think about if I was working like I had planned, I wouldn’t have been able to take time off to care for my parents.
Yeah.. life is interesting. I know this is only one small moment in time that my faith is low. I guess it was bound to happen sooner or later. I mean, I had been on an emotional high for over a year and a half. Maybe it was too high.. if that’s even a thing.
So.. where is my faith?
Umm… I think it’s time I go find it. The good part is, I don’t have to look far or find inspiration or encouragement from some outside source. I have tons of journal entries full of encouragement and acts of faith, love and blessings. I’m sooo grateful God made me who I am. Even though I hate being a loner at times, He’s made it so that I will always be able to make it even if I am alone. It’s times like this that I wish I had a boo to talk to. (Sigh) Again, life!
Thanks for reading another round of my early morning ramblings. Now, let me go read a few journal entries because I hate being in a funk.
Things will happen in life that will make you question whether pursuing your dreams, goals and purpose is even worth it. Guess what? It is! As long as you’re breathing, keep striving for the desires of your heart. DON’T GIVE UP!
Today, a few Facebook memories popped up that reminded me of my dreams, goals and purpose. I can’t give up. Yes, I’m tired. Like.. really tired. But I can’t give up. I have to see these things through.
One of the memories was of General Colin Powell’s passing. Oh how I wanted to meet him. I just knew I would. Same with Kofi Annan. I keep thinking that maybe if I was intentional about it, it could’ve happened. Life. Remembering Colin Powell🕊♥️ ~ Shaun
This morning I’m singing I Won’t Complain for myself and my parents. We’re all aging and life doesn’t look like it used to. However, God’s been so good to us, and all of our good days have definitely outweighed our bad. I know God’s got us! Amen
I Won’t Complain by Rev. Paul Jones Lyrics by The Mezzo Agency, LLC
… I’ve had some good days I’ve had some hills to climb I’ve had some weary days And some sleepless nights
… But when I look around And I think things over All of my good days Outweigh my bad days I won’t complain
… Sometimes the clouds are low I can hardly see the road I ask a question, Lord Lord, why so much pain? But he knows what’s best for me Although my weary eyes They can’t see So I’ll just say thank you Lord I won’t complain
… The Lord Has been so good to me He’s been good to me More than this old world Or you could ever be He’s been so good To me
… He dried all of my tears away Turned my midnights into day So I’ll just say thank you Lord I’ve been lied on But thank you Lord I’ve been talked about But thank you Lord I’ve been misunderstood But thank you Lord You might be sick Body reeking with pain But thank you Lord The bills are due Don’t know where The money coming from But thank you Lord Thank you Lord Thank you Lord I want I want to thank God God God God Has been so good to me He’s been good to me More than this old world Or you could ever be He’s been so good He’s been so good He’s been so good So good So good So good So good To me He dried all of my tears away Turned my midnight into day
Thanks for reading and singing along (smile). I pray you have a blessed week.
How do you define love? Is it patience, kindness and understanding?
How do you show it? How do you receive it?
Unfortunately, love isn’t black and white or one size fits all. How one person shows or receives love can be very different from the next.♥️
A few months ago I took the 5 Love Languages quiz– https://5lovelanguages.com. Took it twice and a similar quiz, and the results were the same. My primary love language is Quality Time followed by Words of Affirmation. If you haven’t taken the quiz, you really should. It’s pretty interesting.
They say it’s not the water around the boat that sinks it, but the water that gets inside. My prayer for you today is that the water – drama, chaos, dysfunction, bad vibes – remains outside your boat. The goal is to protect your mental health. Stay Afloat!♥️ ~ Shaun
Hold on – just a little while longer Hold on – just a little while longer Hold on – just a little while longer Everything will be alright
Pray on – just a little while longer Pray on – just a little while longer Pray on – just a little while longer Everything will be alright
God is working and I’m holding on. I know better days are ahead. This time I’m going to cherish them a little bit more. Smiling
By the way, the premiere of Tyler Perry’s Sistas Season 5 is tonight! Y’all know I get excited about Sistas. It would be so awesome if I could watch and chat from the comfort of my home. Remaining hopeful.
Well, that’s all I have for you today. Please enjoy your Wednesday!
It’s Shaun’s World 
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