Yes, I’m here. Just a little late. Decided to wait until later in the day to write. Figured if I waited I would have more to write about. Umm… not so! Now I’m too tired to write. So, from now on, I think I’ll stick with my morning ramblings. Smile
Anyway.. Don’t fret (as if you were – lol)! I won’t leave you with nothing. On October 10, 2017 at 12:57 a.m., I wrote the following in my journal – “Loyalty. That’s all he needs. Good Night.”
Hmmm… I guess loyalty was all he needed. Smile. Gotta love life.
Happy Sunday! Not sure what I will write about today. Y’all, I am finally all blogged out. Listen, I truly commend you who blog or write daily. Whether you do it for a living or just for fun, it is not an easy task. Question – How do you come up with content?
Personally, I can journal all day long. Journaling comes easily because I am only writing for myself, not other readers. Not sure how other writers feel, but I find so much comfort in not having to consider content or grammar. Allowing my thoughts to flow is so freeing. On the other hand, blogging is a task. I always write with the reader in mind. Although the majority of what I write is off the cuff, I still ask myself if it is something someone else would want to read. Thankfully I have old material – past journal entries, Facebook posts, and quotes (mine as well as others) – available for days I just cannot think of anything to write. Believe me, they have certainly come in handy, especially during my current blogging streak. Yes, I’m on blogging streak! I have now been blogging for 142 consecutive days. Honestly, some days I really do not feel like posting anything. Then, I think of how far I have come. Do I really want to go back to square one? Not at all! Once I hit 100 days, I knew I had to continue. I challenged myself to do at least 50 more. Hmmm… wish I was this committed to exercising. Anyhoo.. now that I am almost at 150, my new goal is 200. Yep…200! Fingers crossed.
To my readers, thank you for rolling with me and actually reading my content, whether it has been engaging or not. I really do appreciate it. And to my true bloggers and writers, you ROCK! So much respect for you.
Well, that was all I could muster for today. Guess it would have been easier to share a past Facebook memory or journal entry, but for some reason I actually wanted to write. Why am I so complicated?
Remember, you’re not super human. You don’t have super powers. The fate of the world doesn’t rest on your shoulders. Rest when you need to rest. Cry when you need to cry. Throw that pity party.🥳 Then get up, get moving and carry on doing your best. #SelfCareFirst
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”Jeremiah 1:5
That scripture came from my morning reading. This next part was amongst my Facebook memories from September 19, 2018.
Quote – “God is calling you, equipping you, [and] preparing you according to His purpose.”
And this was my caption in response to the quote:
I’m so thankful God chose me to fulfill His purpose. Despite my quirkiness, He chose me to carry out this part of His mission. So grateful He loves me as I am. There’s NO love like God’s love!
Based on everything written above, sounds like God has a lot of work for me to do. The humbling part is, I do not have to change who I am to fulfill His purpose. As the scripture above suggests, God already knew what kind of person I would be even before I was conceived. He knew I would see and do things slightly different from others. He knew that no matter how hard I would try, I would never fit anyone’s mold. “. . . before you were born I set you apart.” Whew!
Y’all, I needed this reassurance. Sometimes I do not feel like I belong in certain spaces, but for some odd reason God keeps placing me in them. From here on, whenever I feel unqualified I must remember – God chose ME!
Same for you. If you ever find yourself in spaces that you feel unqualified to be in, just remember – God chose YOU! You are the ONLY one qualified to fulfill that specific part of His purpose. Yessss, YOU!!!
Listen, always remember who you are and Whose you are, and everything will work out just fine. Enjoy your week!
As you may have read, I was feeling pretty down a couple of hours ago (Hello Sunday). Well, a couple of things happened afterwards. I was led to watch/listen to the first YouTube video I saw. This happens quite often when I need a message. The first video was a message by Bishop T. D. Jakes, “How to Prepare for a Shift.” It was only eleven minutes long and when I first started listening, I didn’t think it was for me. By the end of the message, I knew that it was. Message: Be quiet and listen. Listen for God’s voice. As soon as I became quiet, I remembered a program I had been thinking about enrolling in for my new venture. Well, after looking into it, I enrolled. I also received a 75% discount! Woohoo!!
Mentally and emotionally I’m still not back to normal, but I do feel so much better. After finally feeling up to journaling, I was led to read last year’s journal entry. Y’all, this is actually how God works in my life. It’s how I make it. Here are the first two sentences of that entry.
God’s got me; therefore, I know everything will be okay.
He works pretty fast doesn’t He? I’m so grateful He loves me.
I’m awake. Can’t sleep. What do you do when you have absolutely no idea of what to do when your heart hurts? I know I have to push through. I know that in a few days I will not feel like this. I know that eventually the pain will fade. However, at this moment, I’m hurting.
I really hate writing sad, depressing blogs. I don’t feel like journaling. I don’t feel like talking. I don’t feel like making a social media post. I chose to blog because somehow I actually feel like the universe hears me this way. Maybe… just maybe, by writing it here the universe will hear my pain and make everything okay.
I know this is just a moment I’m going through. I know it will pass. I know God’s got me. However, right now, I’m sad and my heart hurts.
Today would have been Aunt Beaulah’s 65th Birthday. I don’t usually celebrate birthdays of deceased relatives. However, today I am going to celebrate hers. I think it is fitting since we buried her yesterday. I will just call it an extended home going celebration. I believe she would get a kick out of it.
Happy Sunday! Today’s blog is going to be another brief one.
Over the last couple of days, I haven’t felt like talking or interacting with people much. I’ve been in my “secret place” – the place that the Winans refer to in their song, Secret Place. Nothing bad. It’s just that lately I have had a lot on my mind like – pivoting, changing course, going in a different direction, dropping things/people that are causing more stress than being beneficial, and doing something new.. something totally different from what I have been doing the last 20 years or so. This is not the first time I have done this. Let’s just say it’s probably the third time in my lifetime. In my younger years, I wasn’t afraid to let things go or change courses. Now that I’m older, and somewhat wiser, I’m kind of hesitant. Will I have time to achieve new dreams and goals? I have always said the first half of my life (first 50) was for figuring things out, and the last half (50+) for living out my dreams. Didn’t think I would be changing directions this late in the game. Gotta love life.
I know I just rambled off a lot. Even with writing all of that, I still don’t feel like talking. I have a lot of decisions to make. I know it’s time for me to change courses. The direction I was headed in had me constantly stressed and anxious. I needed these last few months to get my head straight. You all will probably be the first to know where this new journey takes me.
By the way, this is my 92nd day of posting! YAY!! Consistency, discipline and dedication are key. Oh, and I actually love what I’m doing, especially creating the stories.
As always, thank you so much for putting up with my ramblings. Now you know how my journal feels. Smile.
Hello Everyone! Hope this blog finds you well. Thought I would open today’s blog with a proper greeting because you deserved to be greeted properly. Now, I am not going to promise this will happen often, however, it is happening today. Smile
For those of you who have been reading my blogs for a while, you know I constantly reference two things – trusting God and fulfilling my purpose. You would think by now I would have trusting God mastered. Well, to be completely honest, I don’t. I mean, my trust is getting stronger over time; however, I do slip up from time to time and try to do things on my own. This does not mean I do not have faith that God will do what He’s said. It means sometimes I think He could use a little help with hurrying things along. Now, I know I cannot be the only one who does this. Anyhoo.. today I would like to share a Facebook memory from 2018. The “social media” find I am referring to in my post is the following quote from Bruce Van Horn.
Focus more on WHY you want your dreams to come true rather than how to make them come true. The “HOWS” happen in miraculous ways!
Bruce Van Horn
Facebook Memory: August 8, 2018
Today’s social media find. I’ve found this to be true. The more I focus on why I want my dreams to come true, the more things fall into place. When I focus on the “hows,” I tend to worry and become anxious. I’m learning more and more to let go and let God handle the “hows.”
Two Questions: Why do you want your dreams to come true? What’s your purpose?
As I mentioned earlier, I am getting better with trusting God – that is, completely trusting God to handle everything, or the “HOWS”. The newest task that has been added to this journey is expectation. Basically, expecting to receive God’s blessings (during the how moments) while staying focused on my dream, or my purpose. Yeah.. it’s pretty complicated. My problem has been going from trust to expectation without becoming anxious because I do not see anything happening. I know it’s going to happen because He said it would. But.. WHEN?! HOW?! Now, THAT is a discussion for another blog! Lol. One day I will share my testimonies. Believe me, there are many. Y’all, God is constantly blowing my mind! Smile
Well, that’s all I have for you today. Have a blessed week!
Happy August! Can you believe we are getting closer and closer to the end of the year? Time…
I recently read a quote that said, “Time has a wonderful way of showing us what really matters.” And it does.
Time is showing me that I need to prioritize my health. I need to spend more quality time with family. I need to focus on things that make me feel fulfilled and less on trivial matters. This is what time is showing me.
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