My life. My world. Love, hope, peace, joy & happiness.
Discernment– the ability to judge well: the quality of being able to grasp and comprehend what is obscure.
God has given each of us the ability to discern whether or not something is in our best interest. If it’s not, let it go. If it is, embrace it. Discernment is one of our superpowers. Be sure to use it.♥️ ~ Shaun
Every blessing comes with a certain amount of responsibility. Often, it’s a responsibility we never anticipated or something we have tried avoiding, yet it happens anyway.
Right after I resigned, my dad became sick again. My last day of work was April 1st and a week later, what was supposed to be a two day trip turned into a three week stay. Just like now, I had so many things planned for my new venture. Looking back, everything still happened but not as I had planned or within my timeframe.
Here I am again attempting to launch this newest project and all I’m hearing is be still and go with the flow. Right here, right now, is where I’m meant to be. It’s where I’m needed.
This morning it dawned on me that besides responsibility, there’s a lesson attached to my blessing. I’m blessed to have time to spend with all three of my parents. Although it’s not under great conditions, it’s an opportunity most people don’t get with their parents due to other obligations. At this time, the projects I’m currently working on are my own (which I can modify and/or postpone), and my children are living their own lives. So, I’m going to relax and go with the flow of things. God has always provided and will continue to do so. I’m blessed.♥️ ~ Shaun
Have you ever wanted to cry but can’t. Like, you feel this ache deep down in your gut, and there’s this sharp pain in your throat, but the tears won’t come. It’s almost like they’re waiting for the perfect moment to start flowing.
I don’t want to talk. I just want to be alone so that I can process everything. However, that’s almost impossible when nurses and techs are constantly coming in and out of the room. Then there’s interacting with Momma– turning her, feeding her and making sure she’s comfortable. PLUS, I don’t want her to see me cry. I’ve already been wiping her tears. Don’t want to make her feel worse than she already does.
As I mentioned in last week’s Hello Sunday, this hospital visit is different. This time I feel like I’m protecting and caring for my child, not my mother. I refuse to leave her up her to fend for herself. Yeah.. this time things are different.
Going to go pick up dinner after the nurses change shifts. I’ve already fed Momma but I need to eat. Y’all, I really need to cry. Just praying that the tears hold until I make it to the car.
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Today’s a brand new day. So grateful for life. So blessed that Momma is still with us. Although the progression process has been very slow, she’s still progressing. Taking things one day at a time. Prayers for continued peace, patience and guidance. Amen
Shaun
Life happens, right? And some things are just completely beyond our control. I would say this past week has taught me the meaning of, “Just go with the flow.” However, it’s one lesson I’ve been learning over the past year and a half.
Last night I finally stop resisting it, even the slightest bit. Last night I changed my prayer from, “Lord, I’m tired. Please help me make it.” to “Lord, I know you will not put more on me than I can bear. Please help me handle things from a place of peace.”
Today, I’m going with the flow from a place of peace. Projects that need to get done will be done when I get to them. Deadlines will have to be pushed back, and I’m okay with that. I know that where I am at this moment is where I need to be. God’s got me. Everything will always work out according to God’s plan, which will always be in my favor. ♥️
Shaun
Intentionality is very important. Be intentional about life, love and communication.♥️ ~ Shaun
That’s the blog..
Trust God’s plan.🙏🏽♥️
Shaun
Love – A four letter word that causes so many mixed emotions.
Love – Patient, kind and understanding.
Love – Complicated.
Love – The heart beats and longs for it.
Love – Can’t live without it.
Shaun ♥️
UPDATE #2: My mom is AWAKE and talking!!! God is soooo good!!! Thank y’all so much for the prayers.♥️
UPDATE: I spoke with my Mom’s ICU nurse a little while ago. She said that my mom actually responded to a few commands this morning. She also held her eyes open for a while. This is all great news!🙏🏽
The past several days have been overwhelming. However, the good news is, my mom is still with us.
As for me, I can’t even begin to describe where I’m at emotionally. Sometimes it feels as if I’m experiencing multiple emotions all at once– frustration, sadness, confusion, and loneliness, then throw in a bit of optimism. Ugh!
Y’all, I’m exhausted but can’t seem to rest. Haven’t had much of an appetite; however, I’m eating because I know I’m supposed to. Basically, I have been forcing myself to eat, drink and sleep. Every time I feel like I have a handle on things, something else pops up.
Yesterday Momma opened her eyes for a brief moment while my sister and I were in the room. Y’all, it felt like a miracle had happened. We were so happy. That was during the first ICU visitation. During each visitation that followed, we expected her to do the same or more but nothing happened. She barely even moved. One of my sisters said we should only speak positively. That negative conversations will only make things worse. She doesn’t want to hear anything other than Momma is going to pull through. Guess what?! This is really difficult to do when you’re the person who has to make the final decisions in case she doesn’t pull through. And that person is me.
Yes, it hurts. It’s painful. It makes me want to scream. But I’m here. I’m making it. I’m going with the flow. God’s got me. Life…
I love you, Momma.♥️
Shaun
My goal for this week.. and always.. but more so this week – Seek love, wisdom and understanding.
When it’s hardest to love, love anyway.
Be wise about choice of words and actions. The goal should always be to build not destroy, even when situations seem hopeless.
Seek to understand before passing judgment.
These are my goals. What are some of yours?♥️ ~ Shaun
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